2008.11.15
今日巳經係畢業旅行ge最後一日na..
佢哋亦係時候番澳門..
今天的行程暗然失色..
本來就無乜心情.
xxx越泥越煩..中午戈餐火煱.
話咩只要我夾ge佢都會食晒. 咁口响!?
剩ge野都ok多.
一氣之下將兩碟羊肉a雞肉a乜鬼都倒晒落個煱個.
隨即就走左出去..(無眼睇)
d人話佢狼吞到一半就比人趕走左..
討厌那些花言巧語不知所謂的男生!
因為今晚最後一晚,我地1班過晒去miss間房.
儀式上ge大集合.
搞笑ge小肥,搞事ge各位同學..
多謝你地令呢個班聚合,
讓我的旅程添增色彩.
認識你們是我幸運.
抱歉是我的不合群...
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2008.11.17
終於番到hm na~!
肥甘tel打唔通...
尋晚戈程歸途火車.
多左段難忘ge回憶.同几份難得ge友誼..
先講我比小肥&中肥捉左去審問(xxx,xxx,b龍..--")
b龍都有跟埋入泥.
我比兩肥夾係中間..听佢地一唱一和..
我卻沒有半點厌惡..只覺得佢地天生異特.好搞笑..
(搞事的相片..沒有給我介意的感覺)
b龍被委成了我的第三個"護花使者"
自己人明就ok..haa//
講重點..
尋晚何來的心緒..同B龍,陳豪,XX鑫火車足膝...
傾左好几個中..
我毫無介心地分享我的那些..
講到戈份九人誼..見B龍感觸落淚..
(突然先諗起B龍好眼淺..)
講到我ge過去..我ge故事令陳豪淚眼..
(我卻感覺自己早巳失去了最原始的痛惜...越覺麻目..那是好事嗎?我竟然有點懷緬...)
那畢竟是難忘的火車片段..
那可遇不可求的機緣...我會記住.
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2008.11.18
Today is still a hoilday, the second term is coming up tomorrow.
We need to concentrate our attention on studying again...
Ivan added me on msn today..
he didn't stop asking me to forgive him and be fds again..
I've heard enough...
I just responded to him that I didn't hate anymore a long time ago and I don't think it's possible to get along with him again, not even the simplist classmate.
I don't want to remind myself anything and I just want to forget, get rid of everything about him!
He is still so innocent that never understand me as before..
again and again ,it's no need to say sorry, no need to regret anything, no need to cherish the fdship when it's over ,
no need to care, no need to think, no need to be fds again.
I kown u feel the same hardship as I felt before,
I thought I wanted to revenge at the beginning...but I was wrong,
I find that I don't even care whether u r happy or sad, no matter u cry or hurt.
It's ur own business.
U've already out of my world.
I don't need to cherish anything now cuz the most unforgetable memories r in the past,
and it's over a long time ago...
I know I just need to forget, ignore and be myself!
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2008.11.19
I'm so happy today~!
for I know my school resulf of the first term~~
I got NO.3 except 3 sujects' marks, which I'm quite confident.
U know what I dreamed yesterday?
Just the same result as it is today!
Things r always unthoughtable~~HAA
yes~! way to go, manna~!
Since u were out of my world, I've become happier and things around me always go well.
Yesterday, u asked me not to be so cool to u again and again...
What u reminded me that the coming term---the second term!
It was such a nightmere for my second term last yr..
I failed my secord term completely last yr because of u!
However, I don't mean to hurt u..
I know the coming term is very important for us and I hope u would do well and achieve ur goal and make ur dream come ture...
I don't really mean to irrupt u as u did last yr...
but I don't know what to do...
I'm just being colder and colder to u ...
I just want myself to be happy..I just want my life to be simple...
I just wondrer..whether I should care of ur feeling or not?
U asked y I become so cool...
U said u were sick because of everyday's self-guilty..
Strange feeling as I felt, I just kept telling myself,'it's not my business!'
the pp XXX is becoming stranger and stranger..
sometimes I feel scare of his eyes when he looks at me..
well...nothing should I do and I just leave things as they r.
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2008.11.22
ah...I've been sick for a few days ...
I almost slept all day today...with nothing done...
The guys r going to the international food festival tonight but I'm not able to join them...
During the sick days, I've been thinking a lot more than usual and I have no idea about that..
However, I just thought more but did as usual...
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One thing worth mentioning is that since I wanted to buy a new computer,
I asked Ronald to go to pick up a naptop for me,
and he was very willing to give me the help and advances about computer
(althought I didn't really know the point of it..==)
What's more, B on said that he has a card that can get a discount for the things bought from CTM and asked me to connect him if possible...
A fd in need is a fd indeed !
thx so much!
Sally asked me to join the Eng courses yesterday and all of the courses r free for the support of the Government.
It's so great that I could get more chances to improve my eng~~^^..
Thx for her recommend and I noticed that there is no mean by disadvantage between fds.
I suddenly recommended to my eight brothers but none of them joined it in any case..--"
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2008.11.23
日記...記下當天的感受..
記下當時深刻的人和事..
里面有很多承諾 決心 倔強..
一段感情..一份情緒..一殺衝動..
保證不了長存.
也沒有永遠的定格..
我們都在任意許願隨便承諾..
然後又有意無意的忘記..
隨着歲月的改變..
用'成熟看透'卸去了誠信的責任..
用'戲言天真'充當了真心的諾言..
當我們再次起筆延續沙灘的故事...
我們的故事是否也延續下去?
但我巳堅決放開了...
當我們的故事被我畫上句號以後..
我是以快樂的心情繼續自己的生活..
可是當沙灘上的她任性放手讓星星散飄空中..
沙灘的故事結局趨向悲劇時..
我卻有種不能言傳的空缺..
我突然在想..真正的放手...
到底是一個人的快樂..還是兩個人的坦然?
也許我根本不該放手..是放開..放開一切..
既然真的放開了..
也沒有必要讓你難受..
過去的...讓我頹廢了整整一年..
我如何狠心讓你重蹈?
算了 夠了....
答應你...最後一次..機會..
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2008.11.28
==...I've been sick for a week!
Twice did I go to the hospital and more than eight hours per day have I slept,
I need to have an afternoon off today though..
Being a sicker is always tired...==+
I need break! I need time! and I need peace!
I will be better tomorrow...for sure...tomorrow...another me...
今日係學校走廊..見到彥..
迎面而來的微笑...
我沒有看錯..她是對我微笑....並以手勢示意.
她竟然對我微笑?
我很意外..也反應不過來..
只是條件反射微笑以回..順然走進了課室..
一個微笑..打破了兩年之久的堅冰..
一份主動..讓我如此感概萬分..
回到座位..我會心微笑...
多謝妳..
她放開了..我呢?
原來放手..並不等於放開...
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