Does it occur to everyone that everything seems fine as it is as long as you are busy, but whenever you take a time to sip your coffee or a moment for quiet reflection, all sorts of feelings just well up in your heart? The feelings come from everywhere……

I find that for years I didn't quite express deep seated emotional thoughts, but there’s always big passion in my heart, maybe I ‘m just not very good at expressing myself, maybe sometimes I do have to hide something which is better unsaid. I dunno,

life can feel like that. You become lonely and hardened because of attacks and defeats. You step back from relationships and avoid challenges. It is easier to isolate yourself than to be vulnerable one more.

But I recently find that how much I hate being vulnerable, weak and confused!

  how desirable for an understanding and deep feelings between fds! 

    If there’s no one around to hear us, our very existence becomes questionable.

Just take the recently months, I’m sorry I didn’t tell you how touched I was

   when the other day I got off the bus at night and saw you gays waiting for me to make sure I got home safely.

   when Ronald listens to me anytime I feel the need to talk.

   when Some sent me a “miss u” msg.

   when Bon and Martin came to visit me and the night we shared our  secrets. Also, the msg……

All of a sudden I just want you guys to know that although we are all apart for a while, busy doing our own things and have no time to connect, you guys are still my dear best fds and I miss you all.                  (^_^)