Monday,2nd November 2009
The first day of having class after internship, I felt very upset. I wanted to read the material about my essay. But the teacher was so annoying and some shit situation raped my ears. Please keep your mouth clear! It didn’t show you were individual. Sorry, you acted like a fool in my eyes.
The deadline is near, but my homework and the outline of my graduation essay are still undone. I don’t know how to push myself to work harder. JLPT is just around the corner, I still prepare for nothing. My confidence also has turned into nothing. The job as a volunteer frustrates me. It’s an excellent chance for me to gain experience so that I need to be positive toward it. Why everything like as messy as my fucking mind? HATE!
Yesterday I met a 12-year-old boy who is bouncing bed athlete. After a chat, I was deeply touched and shame. Young as him, he is more mature than lots adults. It sounds like that I am an unexamed creature in this world. Thanks for the conversation, I learned what I was still lacking of.
It’s much colder now. Winter coming means my school life will end soon. I can’t say I hate the school at all. But I feel regret and disappointed many times. Now I just want to go back home to hang out with some guys. It has been a long time since singing Karaok and watching movies. Such entertainments can bring me out of the shit emotion.
Hey, cheer up. There is less time to figure out complicated thing like life.
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