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This few days I have been recollecting some unhappy events that happened in the past (four years?) It is basically one event (more correctly, a wrong decision made by my dad) and in this few years how my dad mistreated me. It is a feeling of 無奈 plus a little anger. The anger is strong the first day, but is subsided and become 無奈. From another point of view, my dad’s way of treating that particular event is understandable, but doesn’t mean it is right for me. If he is more caring, he will not made that wrong decision. I think the 無奈 is from having my parents who is not a caring person. By that, I mean they are not caring emotionally to me and attentive to my need. But overall, I cannot say they are bad parents. In many aspects, I have to say they are responsible parents( they have given many things to me).Some unhappy events do happen in life, and I am unfortunate that it happened to me. On the other hand, if my dad given the better handling of this matter, this unhappy event can be avoided. That’s why I am無奈 .

Looking back my life, if viewing from other people’s perspective, it is fill with disappointment and mal of achievement. I think I am born with a personality that is not suitable of living happily with people and cope with difficulty in life. It is just about one year ago I face this reality and try to change my personality. I have done some changes to myself. I know I am going on a right path, I hope it will continue. How people view my life is not an important issue to me. What really matter is how I evaluate my life. From that perspective, I think I am having a ok life--- obviously not a disappointing life. God have given me so much, I am lucky when compare to the people in Africa that is suffering from hunger and AIDS.

I am always misunderstood by the society. Often people in my group(ex:church) misunderstand me from who I really am. I need to express myself more the way I really am so people don’t misunderstand me. If I am unsuccessful, I think I will be very happy living in my small society (my group of friends). This is something I have to do. My personality makes people misunderstand me, and I need to change that aspect within my personality.