已經又係隔左好耐無寫日記...本來諗住溫日文...但以我而家呢刻心情...真係溫唔嚟...睇嚟我今次實無得夠...

係唔係人蠢就真係無用呢...日日强迫自己去配合人地的要求...人地講一句...我就好似隻狗咁聽話...

雖然我有睇報紙...有D人仲慘過我...但係我無可能因為人地慘過我...而可以將我唔開心GE野忘記...

我有嘗試令自己克服...但係我有努力過...我唔强求要比人勤力一百倍...唔强求有幾多FRIEND同我慶祝...

就算今年生日...都諗住自己一個過仲好...總之就係唔想留係屋企...唔想去一D生日唔想去GE地方...

好想去唱日文K...但我知道真係好貴貴貴...去環球嘉年華又唔岩時間...兼人地唔鐘意去玩...睇燈飾又覺得多人唔去...

正番真係得冬日節...但肯定多人啦...諗嚟諗去...真係自己一個好過...

兔仔講得岩...生日無人慶祝咪算囉...橫掂我都無咩人緣...

返工...返屋企...同朋友一齊都唔開心...真係唔想自己咁長命...最好22歲就GAME OVER...

唔想再迫自己做唔想做GE野...唔想不停努力人工都係得5500元...留呢間學校第三年啦...仲係咁...命格問題...定係樣貎問題...

學日文...我完全係將教過GE野忘記咁...係屋企...老豆日日都嘈...點可以靜心去做一樣野...

同事...不會是朋友....朋友...感覺不是...

我終於發覺以前好幸福...唔洗諗咁多野..鐘意係街無無聊聊咁行...成績幾唔好都好...一定有FRIEND陪我...唔洗為錢煩腦...返工仲窮過返學...

自從嚟左呢間學校...我日日都想走...日日都想唔做...以前GE老豆無咁煩...越嚟越煩...連電腦都唔想比我玩...

係呢個咁煩GE心情下...我有諗過死...但我令呢個勇氣都無...

我真係唔知為咩生存...自從友坂結婚後...我日日都唔開心...小池徹平不錯...但都不是可以取替友坂...個心亦不會為小池而生存...

好難諗將來的日子會怎樣...身邊的人開始結婚...或者可以去進修...人工加得理想...同埋無我咁煩...我真係唔想咁長命呀...

雖然我去日本的願望未達成...但我真係受夠我而家呢種生活...好想唔好再見到任何人呀...