Every night, before I go to bed. I always look at the sky and

I feel like that no one really cares or even notice me.

I feel like I'm losing  everything. I'm losing the direction.

I don't know what to do. The future is impossible to see.

I don't wanna grow up. I want to be a child .

It is because I don't want to lose people who I love.

I know we can't stay together forever.

One day, they will leave me, my family, my friends.

 It is too early to worry things that will happen after a long time.

But the plot is, it will happen, wouldn't it?

Maybe not today, not tomorrow but one day it will.

And on that day, I will lose everything that it's important to me.

Then, what should I do, fight for it or just wait for that day?

Right now, I have to make a choice.

But every steps that I take may affect the future.

I'm so afraid. What if I make a wrong decision?

Can I fix it? Will I get a second chance?

But whatever it takes I want to stay with my friends as long as possible.

We can't control or change the future but

we can change and control ourselves.

We can control our ways to live and see people.

So, don't say something like "I am so poor."

or"God, why can't I have things that I want."

Think about what do you have at that moment

before you tell people or yourselves what don't you have.

Because if you do find out how lucky you are.

You will understand that your life isn't as bad as you think.

Sometime we can't choose how to live but we can

choose how to think. It is all up to yourselves.

So, don't worry about evrerything that will later

Because you are luckier than you think you are.

So, please don't use the future to torture yourself.

Enjoy what you have right now.

And thank god that he gives you a wonderful life.