有時發覺係qooza打blog真係好自由~
鍾意打咩就打咩~多數人都唔會睇我qooza~
yahoo都唔錯...起碼有人理我先啦-v-
但係xg真係好唔想打...
我睇到人地xg既blog...整得靚仲有成班fd一齊...
我發覺我而家係一個唔知咩既局面....
究竟咩先係真..咩先係岩...我唔知...
我好想放棄哂所有野..但係又唔得...
究竟邊個先係會真正關心我...我唔知...
我真係好亂呀...我已經完全唔知自己每日生存係做咩...
等死?咁不如早死早著...
根本冇意義...可能我係偏激左D...又或者係諗多左...
其實...我而家真係好開心我可以入到2A...
識過一班新既fd可能會更加開心...
我覺得自己好賤...好自私...好衰格...
冇人理先係正常架!! 但係偏偏我完全唔識自立...
仲好似一個細路仔咁要人睇住...陪住...
算啦...我知我係好白痴...好幼稚...好低能...好天真...
根本完全唔知呢個世界既生存方法...
如果...如果...可以有一個永遠唔會對我差既人就好啦...
不過可惜...冇咩可能...
講真...我根本成日都做緊一D唔適合我自己既野...
但係我又唔夠膽去改變...
就好似我入左籃球隊咁...根本我運動又唔係好...
入咩鬼野姐...入左去咪只係自己唔開心...就好似而家咁...
差唔多次次練完波之後我都好唔想繼續落去...
算啦...冇人會嘗試去了解我...
我根本就唔值得人可憐...其實我真係唔係好似你地見到既咁開朗...
咁講得笑...我好介意人地講既野...
就算讚我又好咩都好...我都會好在意...
係我本身既問題...我唔單只係細膽...仲係懦弱...無用...
少少野都驚已經不在話下...唔知點解升中二之後煩既野多左好多好多...
我已經頂唔住啦...我唔知點樣可以發洩...
呢排我已經好少事就係度喊...都唔知喊咩!!
呢D壓力絕對影響緊我既讀書...
我最近果次test都全級101啦...
我想努力溫書咁又點姐...我溫緊書呀爸又話我打機...
冇野好講啦下化...呀媽又成日入黎問呢樣搵果野...
我點溫呀大佬...仲要個電視聲/音響開到勁大聲...
你當我間房有隔音架咩...
算啦...反正我就算點讀...個腦入面都只係得一大堆煩惱架啦~
It's useless~That's fine. That's my problem and it can never be solved so this situation will just continue for ever.
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