今朝一早就起咗身啦,瞓唔到呀,點解?咪有係啲朋友嚟咗探我囉,我個心痛咗成晚又哮喘病發,好辛苦呀!可惜我係一個唔鍾意睇醫生嘅人嚟架,所以就算痛都好,我都冇睇醫生,因為我知道我一睇醫生就會好大件事,一定要留院,但係我今晚約咗frankie出街,所以我決定唔去,同埋唔可以比佢知,我成晚冇瞓,因為我唔想佢担心我,佢己經好多嘢煩緊,我唔想佢再煩埋我啲嘢,我唔想佢咁辛苦呀,咁樣對佢好唔公平同埋會好大負担架。
到咗晏晝,我過咗天晴邨度睇新屋,明知冇錢根本就比唔到租同按金架啦,但係我都想睇吓間屋,所以我照信上面嘅時間過去。點知過到睇屋嘅時候,我真係嚇咗一跳囉,比我想像之中仲要細呀,個主人房只係可以放得張雙人床就咩都冇啦,咁點瞓。個廳如果諗住間房就大件事啦,因為當間咗房之後,個廳就冇晒位架啦。之於個廚房同廁所就更加唔駛講啦,細到嚇親人啦,我真係唔敢想像如果我要咗嗰間屋之後,我個生活會係點囉!
到咗夜晚,我不停咁frankie,睇吓佢係邊,想係邊度同我食飯,順便話比佢聽我今朝個心痛同哮喘發作嘅時,點知我由4點鐘開始打電話打到6點都冇人聽,我當時真係好嬲囉,點解佢次次應承我嘅嘢都做唔到嘅。有時我係度唔係唔愛我呢?佢係咪想分手呢?我哋呢段感情係咪就咁完呢?佢係咪唔想再理我呢個病人呢?我唔想囉!我一路諗就一路喊,喊得好犀利。尋晚我終於同佢嘈啦,點知佢居然話我唔體諒佢,鬧佢,唔幫佢諗辦法解決問題,我聽到就更加傷心,我當時真係好想同佢講分手,但係我講唔出呀,因為我真係唔想冇咗呢段感情呀。
有冇人可以教我點做呀,我好煩呀。唔通我想我男朋友陪我食飯都有錯咩?我真係諗唔明囉!
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