唉`~

我5知幾時先可以有男朋友......

我中意果個`,,,

都5知佢中5中意我!!

talking to him should be a usual thing to do everyday`,,

but then i cant even see him at school,,

how m i suppose to talk to him?!

i felt incomplete`~

sometimes my heart really hurts ALOT!

sometimes i really think that y he just doesnt understand my feeling?!

i pretend to laugh because i dont want u to see i m sad/crying.

i pretend to talk to others because i dont want u to think that i m alone.

if i stand in the rain,

it doesnt mean that i forgot to bring my umbrella,

its because i dont want u to see that i m actually crying,

if i try to hurt myself,

thats because i dont want u to see that i feel sad,

my heart is hurting!

I.....I...

I chose to do those things because i want u to feel that i m alive,

i m a human that actually can talk , can play, can eat etc.

i want u to focus on me,

to pay attention on me!