I hate myself !!!!
NOT only because of my unfavorable behaviours,
But also because of my uncontrollable temper and motions.
I always tell myself that I need to work more and more hard,
and I need to forget everything of the past.
Indeed,
what I'm doing is that I just keep repeating the same mode of life,
a meaningless mode of life.
I was so depressed that i could only smile in front of others,
but pull a long face behind everyone.
I was really silly, isn't ?
I don't konw why....
It seemed that... I was still waiting for something..
An chance? An opportunity? A coincidence?
Or what else ?!
IS waiting equal to wasting?
No one can answer me....
Maybe...
I was too UNRELIABLE...
too BORING...
too SELFISH...
too ANNOYING....
I have too many SHORTAGES that made you scared.
Just leave me alone...
Suddenly,
I want to have a drink.
Just is a want, not a demand.
I don't have the ability to have so.
Please...
let me go...
let me forget...
let me free.
let me become me...
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