OK finally I've got to check that out
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OMG I've left this diary neglected for so many days
but i reckon no one will really care about this
and at some rate so will I, frankly
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so I've just recovered from 3 diseases
feeling great to be allowed to remove my stiffling mask and get some fresh air
by the way i've been having the Mid-term test lately
a miracle experience during the Maths test
the warm breath and the enormous strength you offered me
is forever going to be carved in my pale heart
really touched at that electric moment when when i felt your existence and blessings
the world seemed merely encircling you and me
i would have no doubt to be satisfied even if the whole world was going to be destroyed
even if all my love faded
that never really mattered
'coz i knew you're always there
protecting and loving me
without boundary of life and death
..and 1 more day to go, i will be free as a bird
it feels good even to think of that
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these days i've really thought a lot about some life values and stuff like that
when have I become so thoughtful and so ..sensible?!
even developed a grotesque habit of chatting to myself
oh no I've split up into 2
somehow I love being alone with my other self
not necessarily to be solitary,
but just ..only me, only myself
not having to pretend
the giggly me that everyone recognize
would like so much to dispose my genuine side
but it's just as what Anne Frank had said,
it's really difficult and giving her an unsafe feeling
all of us are just the same
even you are rich and poor, male or female, or whatever..
everyone of us has 2 sides
one for others and one for yourselves
truth will never be obscure will your real reflections
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what i discover is that the older you are, the more you think of yourselves
and the evolving society you are in and all the issues around me
i've grown to be so keen on asking
or perhaps it's only me who's becoming inquisitive
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i'd really like doing sth unusal and remarkling
you may think that i am crazy and daft and stupid and whatever you think
i'm gonna search for my real identity and values
and to use all my knowlegde and all my world to create my own bright future
right ,,
i'm going to let no one obstruct my way
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don't ever let me think of that
don't ever let me meet your boundless expectations
i've only got the power that everyone else get
i'm not a tireless working machine
but only a poor little naive fellow
still i'll strive for my best
and one and go and step and go and i'm going to improve and work and
go paving my way to achieve my dream
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once it appears in this world, i believe it all
i've never doubted, and i never will
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