wow so many things worth noting down these days

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by the way I just gave up the TST prize giving ceremony and headed for my beloved SMS

the rain was quite a considerably torrential one that day, the kind that smeared and making everything

so blurry and far away, the kind that... is quite a wet blanket

had some nice talk with my former classmates& teachers though

and we took some photos

i was so impressed that Ms Ng, my former VA teacher, could still remember me

we had some promises before I left the school, didn't we,

which,  i felt sorry that I didn't manage to keep it

Little had changed in the school, except for those great decroations and THE NEWLY CREATED PRIZES which kinda didn't exist when I was there ( and that's rather unfair)

I love that bell, which was so reminiscent of my lovely days in SMS

can't make out why,  it's quite bizarre

but i know that my feelings of missing this school and my primary school friends had gradually faded

and i was apologetic that I was thinking about this when i was there, being with them

suddenly i felt inferior, and wanted so much to walk my own way

it's still a great time for me

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given back some of the exam scripts recently

not too bad actually

i was just so mystified when WendyB told me that her classmates were vigorously discussing my results

i wonder if i am this appealling to them

tmr- music contest , which i haven't quite prepared

oh no by the way i'm still struggling with the piano exam pieces

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just bought some fine clothes & jeans to wear in Telford

i am so much into the garments in that shop..

so, i am planning to have sushi tmr in that new restaurant in Amoy with some fds

it's amazing to see the long ( man, it's really LONG) queue outside it,

well, i will not be surprised if i am going to wait at least a couple of hours tmr

before really entering it and having sushi

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dancing is great fun, i find out.

after those 5 months of dancing with Wendy B

Flora B is finally going to join us in the July course

let's get frantic guysss

p.s. can't wait to be back on the tennis court& badminton court playing with Wendy B this summer:)

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i know i just deserve this

i know my obstacles now

and it's so good that i know someone do care about me

i need the strength, need the preservance, need the support and guide

i should have known that flowery lang. is not suitable for me

be plain, be humble, be myself, who is still fraught with childlike simplicity that I've never let go of

i know that i still have the qualities that are quite enough to move others

i wonder how can i ever forget this special thing

how can i ever let you down

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never strive for honors and fame,

just strive for your best, humbly and honestly

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i am not some great angel, if i may have my say...

i can't  rule out the possibility that there's no one out there who can truly understand me

even, myself

it's good that the exam was finally over

but having to receive all my results in a couple of days is another depressing thing

SIGH , and still there's a TSA waiting for me

totally overwhlemed

p.s. actually i hate that whole thing of post-exam activities

gonna get crazy this summer holiday

OK finally I've got to check that out

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OMG I've left this diary neglected for so many days

but i reckon no one will really care about this

and at some rate so will I, frankly

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so I've just recovered from 3 diseases

feeling great to be allowed to remove my stiffling mask and get some fresh air

by the way i've been having the Mid-term test lately

 a miracle experience during the Maths test

the warm breath and the enormous strength you offered me

is forever going to be carved in my pale heart

really touched at that  electric moment when when i felt your existence and blessings

the world seemed merely encircling you and me

i would have no doubt to be satisfied even if the whole world was going to be destroyed

even if all my love faded

that never really mattered

'coz i knew you're always there

protecting and loving me

without boundary of life and death

..and 1 more day to go, i will be free as a bird

it feels good even to think of that

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these days i've really thought a lot about some life values and stuff like that

when have I become so thoughtful and so ..sensible?!

even developed a grotesque habit of chatting to myself

oh no I've split up into 2

somehow I love being alone with my other self

not necessarily to be solitary,

but just ..only me, only myself

not having to pretend

the giggly me that everyone recognize

would like so much to dispose my genuine side

but it's just as what Anne Frank had said,

it's really difficult and giving her an unsafe feeling

all of us are just the same

even you are rich and poor, male or female, or whatever..

everyone of us has 2 sides

one for others and one for yourselves

truth will never be obscure will your real reflections

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what i discover is that the older you are, the more you think of yourselves

and the evolving society you are in and all the issues around me

i've grown to be so keen on asking

or perhaps it's only me who's becoming inquisitive

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i'd really like doing sth unusal and remarkling

you may think that i am crazy and daft and stupid and whatever you think

i'm gonna search for my real identity and values

and to use all my knowlegde and all my world to create my own bright future

right ,,

i'm going to let no one obstruct my way

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don't ever let me think of that

don't ever let me meet your boundless expectations

i've only got the power that everyone else get

i'm not a tireless working machine

but only a poor little naive fellow

still i'll strive for my best

and one and go and step and go  and i'm going to improve and work and

go paving my way to achieve my dream

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once it appears in this world, i believe it all

i've never doubted, and i never will