This year Chinese New Year is the worst ive ever experienced

or i should say i don care now, so..

new year or not..it doesnt make any difference to me

especially my aunt doesnt invite me to her no more,

needed to work on both new year's eve and new year day,

doing my course work,

and so fxxking busy of moving house..

it realy don mean anything to me.

ofcos..i wish i was in hk..must be fun..

hv a think..i hvnt been in hk for chinese new year for 4 years

4 years...cant bloody believe its 4 years already!

2day, its our last day in babe's mother house

just within 1 hour, we will move in

and hv our first nite there..

mm..well,

i do look forward to it

but there r still too much stuff r needed to be sorted

wardrobe is not done yet, so the clothes r all over the place

sofas hvnt come yet, so we don even hv a place to sit down apart from the floor

dinning table hasnt even bought yet, so we just use a coffee table to hv our dinner

see?! everything is not sorted

and im absoluely stressed out

especialy i still my course work,

and i need 2 hand in one on 14th Feb..

with no internet in the new house,

i can only now copy all the stuff from the web to my pc

and hopefully i can do it..

so guys,

u wont see me very often now..i dont think the internet will be installed untill another 2-3 weeks

i do go online if i go to uni and i can use the pc..

but not very often though

so if u wana anything,

leave me msg! ^0^

Finally, we hv got the keys!!!!

As we got it on Friday, we hv not delayed any second

we went down to book the carpet and bed on saturday

so it will arrive and being fitted on wednesday

we had a look over fridges and i will book it tmr

Babe and Martin hv been down the house to put the curtains up

tmr, Fat Man will take some more stuff for me into the new house

Hopefully, we can move in on coming saturday

althought im not very confident due to my course work

as there is no internet over the new place,

i do need internet in order to finish my work b4 14th Feb which is the hand in date

so...well, we try to do as many things as possible

and so we can move in as soon as possible

chinese new year is coming...

but wed & thurs i will be at work

i don think i will be able to visit aunts' places

Mom said it will be fine, and so i believe so

busy busy busy

but i enjoy it!!!

Since Ive come to UK

a lot of difference has been made

the biggest issue is family realtionship

its so funny that i never used to get on with my direct family (mum,dad,brother and sister) very well

but since ive come to uk..everything changed

everytime i go back to hk, or call my mum

its always a happy ending

I know they miss me so much, and so do i

and maybe thats y we finally realise the true value of family

However, since ive come to uk

the relationships between my relatives who r over uk and me r totally different

with when i was still in HK!

im actually scared of seeing them!

From new year family gathering

i can tell very easily

My best cousin which i always think is Jon,

he doesnt talk to me no more, or we just hv couple of sentences can talk to each other

Second best cousin Amy,

although there r a lof of things happened to us which shattered our relationship in some points

but i thought we hv overcome it already!

ofcos...thats only my opinion

when she told me she wont b my brides maid

and she aid she still wans to come to the wedding "if i still invite her"

I know very well...its not worthy

the cousin that disappoints me most is Jenny,

we never had a very wonderful relationship cos she lives far away

but i still thought, we can get on quite well

but on that new year family gathering

i could actually tell she don wana speak to me

and she keeps showing her and amy's relationship off

i never took any notice until someone told me

I am not angry, jusst realy disappointed.

I must admit that i shouldve gone to my aunts' houses more often

try to contact them more,

but...they never try to contact me either!

Chinese New year is coming...but i might need to work on Wed & Thur

it is quite impossible that i go to visit them this year

but if i don go..

things will be said behind my back badly

Is it just because my bf is British?

or they dislike me that much?

人負我   我負人

兩者數目可算多可算少

但每位我都希望能繼續為朋友關係

當然  自從來到英國

朋友的數目自然減少

這個"希望"也變得更渺茫

上年 回香港過暑假

沒有期望遇見任何"舊人"

但我遇見一個

他雖然依然像以往那麼風趣

一句普通的說話可以令人笑足兩天

但我看出他的落寞

我負過他  他也負過我

可能是出自於"不甘心"吧

有一分鐘我希望我從未負過他, 他也未負過我

當然 所有歪念一早已消滅

或者根本沒有出現過

上機前一天

他緊緊的捉住我的膊頭

大聲地說: 馬思幸, 你一定要幸福啊!

那刻 我竟然有點想流眼淚的感覺

但我只大聲的對他說:放心! 我一定會幸福的!

沒錯 再多的遺憾也只能回望

後悔總是來得太遲

所以我不會再容許自己錯過任何一個機會

我更相信我們一起的未來會是最美好的

對

我一定會幸福的!

We went to the bank 2day

for the appointment which bout the loan..

thankfully, we hv applied the loan successfully

7,500 pound 

it should come through b4 tuesday

that large amount of money will be used 4 the wedding mainly

furniture for the new house

and hopefully,

our honeymoon as well

im actually very glad

cos now we know,

we can finally start paying deposit or payment for the wedding

but at the same time...

we know very well that our hard life has just begun

although every month payment is not very high

it will be a nightmare as soon as we start paying the mortgage as well

last day in dave's house, finally

cant wait to get back ours