今朝好早就醒左,可能之前飲左酒,訓唔到幾多啦,之後去左食早餐,跟住就睇下報紙,上下網咁啦,晏就就出左去灣仔,因為要幫老豆拎部電話去整,我都醒架了,打左電話俾人先再出去,但冇人聽,都估可能人地做緊野je,點知出到去冇開鋪,@@,又白行了,好彩,唔洗我行,架車行je,都冇咁傷............哈哈

之後打俾呀cow,佢話同tina佢地去睇concert,我自己都唔記得................=.=,仲唸住搵佢地食飯,唉...........算.返到大埔,先去呀婆到拎番d鎖匙,因為聽日要同人傾埋d生意,跟住番到home,呀媽話冇煮我飯,啞左.....................=.=好肚餓呀........................,之後落左街食野,老豆就打俾我,叫我12點到去落馬州接佢,就ok啦...........

突然heidi係msn叫我,問我有冇野做,我話冇,佢就問我出來飲酒好唔好,我心唸,而家先叫出來飲,玩咩??@@最後我都話好,不過要接左我老豆先再出來,佢話ok,之後我用左3個字由大埔揸車出到來觀塘@@,勁呀............................

係mtr station等齊人就去左panda bar度飲,大家都好開心,有傾有講,玩骰盅,傾左好多野....................^^,玩到4點到就走了,我同佢地去搭車先,之後我自己先去上車,個van仔佬痴痴地ga,開到好很快,差d想嘔...................=.=,返到home都差唔多5點,跟住打埋日記,坐多陣,之後就上床睡lu...............哈哈,好開心,多謝heidi同肥b陪左我一晚..............^^

今晚,我約左呀cow去飲酒,唔係因為唔開心,反而係相反,好開心咁去飲酒,因為我好relax去afford所有ge事,呀cow都問我點解今日咁開心,我答佢我放低哂所有野,包括感情,因為我唔想再綁死自己,咁樣會好辛苦,既然冇可能發生ge野,倒不如由佢順其自然好過啦,我同呀cow傾左好耐,因為我地8點幾開始飲ga了,飲到成點鐘先走,大家都好開心,可以話我近排最開心ge一晚,因為我將所有野都放低哂,所以我飲左好多酒,先飲紅酒,再溝啤酒,最後就tequlie,超勁,溝左咁多都冇醉,哇哈哈...................

之前ge我,好老實咁講,我揸得太緊了,完全冇唸過會跌得咁傷,但係,經過呢次,我真係明白到,雖然有好多野都可以控制係自己手上面,但係唯獨是感情呢樣野,係可以控制ge範圍之外,唔係話你付出過就一定有回報,而一定要對方都有呢種感覺先得,講真,我都仲係鍾意佢,但我亦都好清楚知道,佢係唔會...........既然係咁,又何必去強求呢.............由得佢順其自然吧啦,如果再係咁落去,對大家都冇好處,可以連朋友都冇得做,咁又何苦呢............

而家ge我,只係會將事業擺係第一位,其他ge野,......................聽天由命啦,唔想唸得太多,會好唔開心,咁做人都冇乜意思啦,緣份呢樣野,要來ge你擋都擋唔住,要走ge你留都留唔到,一切隨緣吧...............^^

雖然今日天氣唔係咁好,但無損我ge心情,因為我終於可以做到一樣我以為自己永遠都做唔到ge野,我唔夠2個禮拜就做好份poposal,有60page再+30page ge圖,@@勁呀,我唸住要成個月先做我哂,連我自己都估唔到自己有咁ge能力...............哈哈,真係要俾10個(  勁  )字俾自己...................^^

呢幾日都好平靜咁過,只係尋日呀婆生日先出左去食飯,之前就同heidi佢地食飯,因為補番heidi生日,唔開心ge野我唸唔會再係呢個日記到出現,亦都唔想................雖然我係呢度打左日記唔係好耐,但係短短ge時間,我係呢個日記打ge野都係唔開心多過開心,我唔想再係咁打d唔開心ge野,只會令自己冇心情,有唸過以後都唔打,但係又唔想係番xanga度打,因為唔記得個pw...............=.=

而家ge我明白左好多野,不論係人生ge路,事業,由其係愛情,因為你鍾意ge唔一定會鍾意自己,仲可能覺得你好煩,就算你乜野都冇做過,只係當你係佢身邊行過ge一個普通人,有d會拖你時間(我好耐之前試過啦,仲要俾人玩,當我係觀音兵,eps..........)我覺得呢個世界好現實..........................

好似得到解脫咁,其實都幾開心,因為唔須要再為其他人而去做一d野.......................等等,都幾逍遙自在,可能呢個先至係我自己啦,哈哈.................

呢幾日都係咁不停打機,一訓醒,落街飲完荼之後,就坐左係度打機,因為d野都搞得7788了,所以冇乜野做....................打到要食飯就食飯,食完飯又係咁打,打到好夜.............因為都唔知有乜野好做,又唔想出街,太熱了,同埋一個人都唔知可以去得邊,所以就瘋狂咁打機,嘆住冷氣,真舒服,打到眼訓就去訓覺...................

就係咁過左幾日,之前fanny返左大陸玩,有d擔心咁啦,因為驚佢有意外,不過佢返左來就冇野lu,哈哈