Took lots of photos, these lead to happinese as well as unhapinese.
i have been thinking of what to do when i take photos with people.
My answer was 'Stay as close with ppl as i can when take photos and put my hand on ppl shouder'
Stand in the point of view of a photographer, a good photo is nothing much than no space between ppl.
i am not sure whether because of these photos.... 她對我反感....or because of 我既性格.....
有一個問題我經常都在想...就係點解 the way she treats me is different to other ppl. Ask all ppl to go to library with her, except me. Whatever she is going to do, would not ask me.
Alsways get a bad feeling from that...
Is she scared of me ? She might....
When is it started? Since i have told her what my feeling is to her....
從那一天, 說出那幾句說話的時候, 我便要預計到這一天的來臨.
After she knew that what she said? she answer 我都有小小鍾意你.
Once i saw that, i know she doesnt have a feeling that like me and she just doesnt want to hurt me.
我寧願她對我坦白, 都不願聽到她說這句說話.
傷口需要時間去復原....
當我見倒她的 msn pm is '反感X 1000' 的時候, 我問自己一個問題 'Am i the one who make her feels that? THe photos?'
I hope not.... 但看來就是...
Ask her what her PM was referring to ....
no replied....
i waited....
Ask her 'here?'
no replied...
i waited again ......
no one answered me....
She was actually appearing 'Online '......
Unitl i asked 'is there sth i did wrong and make u feel that?'
She replied,' no~ i am at the middle of thinking. ttyl~' These words have answered my question and seems like saying 'Yes, u make me feel that''
i ask 'Shall have a talk?'
She replied,' i got to dishes and clean. Brb~' These have told me that she doesnt want to talk to me... and these also shown how bad she felt about me.
And i waited for a long time again....
After a long time she didnt say anything and just left her blog to me...
就連 explain 既 chance 都冇.... 一個小小既機會都冇....
我有睇過個 Blog, 佢想我睇既那一份文章.
我中文唔太好, 但我很想完全明白文章中佢想同我講既野, 所以睇左好幾次.....
最後既一個結論就係 ... 我做左一D不能原量既野....令佢回憶起 her past experience.
錯, 錯在我既衝動...
錯, 錯在我既行為....
錯, 錯在我既言語...
When u have a sense of love to someone, u would respect one's decision.
在一個森林褢便, 有很多既樹, 每一棵都有佢地既特別之處: 有些會結出甜美既果實, 有些是充滿綠油油既葉子, 還有其他的
我比較固執, 係果棵, 就係果棵.
當你愛上其中一棵既時候, 你不一定要把她搬到你的屋子附近, 因為那裡的土壤不一定適合佢既需要.
如果你真係為她好的話, just let her to stay where she wants as this is where she feels most comfortable.
有時不一定要擁有, 時常到森林之中 look for her and 觀察佢既成長狀況....
呢個就係作為'朋友' 既角色
當她有需要既時候, 伸出援手就可以.
要學會放手.... 她需要的是自由....
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