Took lots of photos, these lead to happinese as well as unhapinese.

i have been thinking of what to do when i take photos with people.

My answer was 'Stay as close with ppl as i can when take photos and put my hand on ppl shouder'

Stand in the point of view of a  photographer, a good photo is nothing much than no space between ppl.

i am not sure whether because of these photos.... 她對我反感....or because of 我既性格.....

有一個問題我經常都在想...就係點解 the way she treats me is different to other ppl. Ask all ppl to go to library with her, except me. Whatever she is going to do, would not ask me.

Alsways get a bad feeling from that...

Is she scared of me ? She might....

When is it started? Since i have told her what my feeling is to her....

從那一天, 說出那幾句說話的時候, 我便要預計到這一天的來臨.

After she knew that what she said?  she answer 我都有小小鍾意你.

Once i saw that, i know she doesnt have a feeling that like me and she just doesnt want to hurt me.

我寧願她對我坦白, 都不願聽到她說這句說話.

傷口需要時間去復原....

當我見倒她的 msn pm is '反感X 1000' 的時候, 我問自己一個問題 'Am i the one who make her feels that? THe photos?'

I hope not.... 但看來就是...

Ask her what her PM was referring to ....

no replied....

i waited....

Ask her 'here?'

no replied...

i waited again ......

no one answered me....

She was actually appearing 'Online '......

Unitl i asked 'is there sth i did wrong and make u feel that?'

She replied,' no~ i am at the middle of thinking. ttyl~'     These words have answered my question and seems like saying 'Yes, u make me feel that''

i ask 'Shall have a talk?'

She replied,' i got to dishes and clean. Brb~'  These have told me that she doesnt want to talk to me... and these also shown how bad she felt about me.

And i waited for a long time again....

After a long time she didnt say anything and just left her blog to me...

就連 explain 既 chance 都冇.... 一個小小既機會都冇....

我有睇過個 Blog, 佢想我睇既那一份文章.

我中文唔太好, 但我很想完全明白文章中佢想同我講既野, 所以睇左好幾次.....

最後既一個結論就係 ... 我做左一D不能原量既野....令佢回憶起 her past experience.

錯, 錯在我既衝動...

錯, 錯在我既行為....

錯, 錯在我既言語...

When u have a sense of love to someone, u would respect one's decision.

在一個森林褢便, 有很多既樹, 每一棵都有佢地既特別之處: 有些會結出甜美既果實, 有些是充滿綠油油既葉子, 還有其他的

我比較固執, 係果棵, 就係果棵.

當你愛上其中一棵既時候, 你不一定要把她搬到你的屋子附近, 因為那裡的土壤不一定適合佢既需要.

如果你真係為她好的話, just let her to stay where she wants as this is where she feels most comfortable.

有時不一定要擁有, 時常到森林之中 look for her and 觀察佢既成長狀況....

呢個就係作為'朋友' 既角色

當她有需要既時候, 伸出援手就可以.

要學會放手.... 她需要的是自由....

it was a nice day and had a nice weather.

woke up at 11 o'clock and say didnt say "hi" to my breakfast.

so happy that went to Chatswood with Christina, Xinling, 冰水, Alice, Tracy and 大正 and went to the cinema called Hoyts where i have never been to.

i went with them as i wanted to getting know them more and watched the movie 'Aftershock' 唐山大地震

ppl who have watched this movie they all say u would start crying from the begining to the end of the movie.

We divided into two rows: 大正, 冰水, Christina and me in the same row, and then XL, Alice and Tracy sitting in front of us. 

About 10 minutes after the movie started, Tracy started crying like water spill out from a broken faucet cant be stopped.

XL and Alice kept passing her tissues.

Christina was sitting next to me and sneaky/ peek at her and see if she cried.

i was so surprised that she didnt cry, i thought.

As long as the movie finished, we came out and she did cry actually by noting that she 眼紅.

冰水 wore a cap to cover her eyes

i enjoyed the movie very much, however, i just 流左幾滴眼淚 for the ending.

After that, we got on the train and going to City to have dinner. Nana couldnt go with us and needed to back home soon.

Finally, Tracy, Alice, 冰水, 大正 and me had 火鍋 together.

This dinner changed my perspective on these girls... they seems like ate more than me =="

i was just staring at their "Speed" and said "你們很厲害" ....

由於呢間 restaurant 係自助既形式...所以我地... i mean 佢地全部都集中火力喺羊肉+ Cow meat .... in total 我地都拎左 at least 10 碟 ==""""

仲我始終鍾情於我既腐皮 =]    (定係叫腐竹呢?)

由於他們既"火力"集中, 勝利很快便降臨, 佢地既 皇 "胃"  已經得到佢應得既野, 係時候起程回家了 =]

呢次可以話同 Alice, 冰水 and Tracy stay 得最耐, 講得最多野既一次 =]

第一個話題: 你鍾意什麼類型的女生呀? ( i think this is a very common question that ppl always ask)

Somehow, she appears in my mind and i started to describe her.

One of the adjectives i have used  to describe her was 斯文.

在其他人既眼中唔係, 但係喺我眼中既佢就是 那麼的斯文 ,

第二個問題: 你 Formal 是不是根她們一起去呀?

i answered,' why ar?'

'因為你們都是香港來的.'

我心想 ' 我想，　我當然想，　especially with her '

i wish this will come true, but its unlikely to be happened.

Actually enjoyed the time being with these three friends.

i like the tone they speak and i feel quite comfortable when talk to them as i can speak slowly =] their thinking attracts me.

哈哈。。。陳子樑你竟打左日記。。。下次唔知幾時在打呢 =]

it was the last day of the Trial Exam and this means the nightmare is all over at the moment. i know it would be started again as long as we get the results back.

Once i came out from the school hall, just after the exam, i saw Sheree which was unexpected and what i want to happen.

i was very happy if she  were waiting for me. She left with Yoyo after a while. i dont even have a chance to say 'hi' to her.

Somehow we met again while we were on the way walking to the Towers.

There were me, Rooney, Jimmy, Van, Stephanie, Sheree and Yolanda.

i didnt talk to her while walking, i should say i cant open my mouth when face to her. Tried to ... but seems like she doesnt want to talk to me ...

Soon, we arrived Towers food court...

after a while, i just say 'Bye' to all of them and i left with Stephy and Rooney. 

The reason why i didnt stay with them as i had a feeling she would feel more comfortable if i left...

also, Rooney seems like didnt have a good performance in the exam and so i must not let him to go home straightaway.

i must take him to walk around.

i think this is the longest time i stay with Rooney after school ever.

Stay with him can have fun. We were like going into each of the shops, in the other words "運吉"

Belonging requires understanding and times ar ma.

People Smiles and their happiness, it is what i want to see =]

After that, ate chicken with Rooney and Stephy...

Too full and late back home... like at 6.40

gonna have four days holiday =]

很多時候都覺得都有一種感覺, 一種遠在天邊, 近在眼前的感覺.

有一種不能接近的感覺.......

我來, 她走.....

我走, 她來....

向左走, 向右走....

感覺上...站在船上, 看到一個小島, 看似很近, 但同樣很遠.........

在懸崖上的鮮花， 只能遠看，細察。　

Want to protect her..... but seems like all i do is just non- sense as she may think.....

Someone:  why do you need to do that for her?

           Me:  i want to protect her.

Someone: Protect her? Why !? What is your identity to her?

         Me:   ................. yeh..... i am just her friend only.  i can just try to help her but can't fully protect her.  i may not put my hand on any issue, unless she asks me for help.

A moving train would not stop, unless it reaches the destination.....

好煩呀 !

好煩呀 !

好煩呀 !

好煩呀 !

好煩呀 !

好煩呀 !

i Really Dont like this kind of  '''''''十 pies '''''' (驚喜）　　呀。。。。

點解突然間又要做多 one more related text for both Belonging and  Australian Vision 呀。。。。

叫人黠做呀。。。。　＝＝＂

ＩＦ　ｙｏｕ　ａｓｋ　ｉｆ　ｉ　ｗａｎｔ　ｔｏ　ｇｏ　ｔｏ　ｌｉｂｒａｒｙ　ｏｒ　ｎｏｔ。。

ｉ　ｗｏｕｌｄ　ｓａｙ　ｙｅｓ  coz she is there at the library.

ａｌｓｏ。。。　ｉ　ｗｏｕｌｄ　ｓａｙ　ｎｏ　ａｓ　ｗｅｌｌ。。。　because she is there at the library.

All ppl are asked to go to library, not included me. I am confused.... and i dont know why.....