i cant see the judge again .....no more ....no more.....cant waste any more money......cant .....seriously .. i m damn serious....aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...........come on, man .....dun waste ur talent, dun hurt urself...dun even try to harm ur value ....... today, go to multipical court.....total penatly for traffic violation  s like a thousand sth.... crap.....horrible....so scary... and then i  choose monthly payment ...which is like i hv to pay $70 each month....why m i so stupid....why m i so dumb. . i realize i can not break the law.....cant even do anything against the law as it s non-challenging..... paramount, supreme ......how long will i hv to pay the penalty.. a yr and a bit more.........oh..no.....i need support..i do .. i reli do........when ever i see cob / police car now ...i  become so nervous , scared.....aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.. it just drives me crazy hardly, hardly.....oh,no .....oh.no.........plz...plz... can someone control myself well and not let me do all kinds of crazy things ... i dun wanna regret..... in my rest of life ...........

ps: mom ,sorry... sorry..sorry....i know it s useless no matter how many times i say sorry to you....unless i prove sth....i will . i wll .. i will .. i promise. i promise ..... and dad also.....my familes as well, sorry, wuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu #_#