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(以下是我對這個世界的感受  所說的都是真的  希望各人細心閱讀)

我已經受盡現實的侮辱!

夠了夠了夠了!

一直失敗... 還要失敗到何時?

最終在堂上哭了起來, 誰人知?

我還要撐着以笑容迎接他人... 真痛苦

失敗之後  即使我有多衷心去尋找出錯的地方

有多努力去吸取教訓  下一次總是繼續失敗. 為何?

上天猶如誓要把我玩弄  非要我絕望不可

回頭看  過去的9個月  簡直是大起大落

有一樣東西曾令我自豪? 沒有!

有的只是他人視為不重要的態度. 可悲的世界

我雖知道自己不聰明. 沒智慧. 不是讀書的料子

但我亦清楚自己比其他人優勝的地方- 就是能屈能伸的精神

我不是想炫耀些什麼   只是

誰能捱更底夜為 unicef 賣命?

誰能同時間兼顧讀書, unicef 這大型project, 中辯?

誰能在這大壓力的學習生涯之中捱過去?

相信有很多朋友也不肯

流了多少的淚  行了多少的路

全靠自己的堅持捱過去  我自認我已經做到最好

可是

誰會欣賞?

多少的人多少的老師都是着重結果  不着重過程

即使口掛"要從錯誤中學習"  到最終只對同學的成果執着

有沒有人留意過某某同學在大家開心玩樂時在掙扎?

鼓勵的說話我聽不多  因為很多人都認為我是自找麻煩

我對現實真是很失望

現在的人  總是吃不了苦  怕辛苦怕吃虧  (這些人我見得多)

返而吃的苦的人卻指被自尋煩惱

哈  這究竟是什麼世界?

雖然還有很多人比我還吃的苦 (uncief 的人們我佩服你們!)

我希望這種態度至少有一人欣賞  是真心欣賞  不是隨便說說

若果連一人都沒有  這個世界就不屬於我  是屬於那些庸才

我相信今年的老師對我的品質和能力都存疑

因為我看似無心無能力

但其實我在你們熟睡時還對着電腦打報告書

唉  說到這裡淚想湧出來了

某朋友認為我很想死  告訴你- 絕對不是!

我只是不時抒發我大壓力的情緒  不至於要死的地步

我雖不聰明  但未至於不成熟

我知道這個世界還有很多東西好玩很值得留念的

有人叫我從好的方面去看

當然我懂得這樣做  但人也不可常常只看好的一面

某某又叫我心情要豁達

我這還不叫心情豁達? 在3月非常時刻我沒有發瘋

懂得說笑給朋友  已經是我能力極限了

我累了  眼淚也被我流盡了

這時侯  我的笑容應該再之回來

迎接明天的-- 挑戰!

朋友們  希望你們現在能給予一句鼓勵的話

你們或許不願意  但請讓我好過點 :)

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thx rebecca for giving me lots of happiness after skl! u r the moliu-est ppl i hv ever meet

welcome to GANSU! u are with me :)

in the way to unicef center, i in fact dunno wt u were talking about

u suddenly said "touchwood" n ask me to "TOUCH wood" -.-

OK i followed it @_@

yet i am not a mouse! i can't see why i llook like a mouse

Hurrrray! GANSU dream comes true!

alice called me yesterday when i was sleeping haha

anyway thx for this opportunity!

um i need to start revising; or else i can't balance btw unicef n academic

there's a indemnity form... so serious -.-

this sentence is pretty xD although it's common to state,

it seems predicting me i will hv some accidents... hoho

hai but rebecca couldn't go, dunno y

vicky wanted to go to Napel, but was arranged to gansu- poor vicky!

someone said alice cried becoz she felt depressed in working unicef

hai... fight for yrself alice,, that's wt i can say

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thx my friends n classmates! i finally collected 16 people in support unicef flag selling

congrat. to rachelwong catlau anglechu! For them to enter music subject as a result!

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after tmr, 4 days holidays! ys! get rest!

chatted with "good person" yesterday til 0200

woh never be with her that late haha

she threatened me! she said i would get low marks in chinese writing

becoz i hv low humanity -.-

she n ada were surely a "bad" person, they don't help unicef flag selling

today found mr.lee, so glad that at least 1 teacher know my hard work T^T

he asked me how skl can improve... HOW CAN I ANSWER?

his questions show that he seems know i talked something bad about skl...

i can just answer... um... in fact miss pow helped us a lot! (-.-)

so frightened... i'M scared i am the 9 out of 61

i want to go to guangsu... god bless!

tmr LS... wt to do? sleepie zzz

2 days to go for clipit @oil everyone!

rachel also @oil to compose yr song,, surely it will be great.

multi game no newsss... can't get into final this year??

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unicef arr... 99% can't go to field trip

becoz the china card had expired

Guangsu... bye bye :(