我尋日帶細女去打針嘅時候終於證實我有中度嘅產後抑鬱,個姑娘仲同我老公講咗,而且約咗10月4日見精神料醫生,但係我覺得佢好似唔覺得呢個係啲咩大病嚟,真係好想死呀!
事原係咁嘅,尋日細bb打完針之後發燒,而我又唔舒服,咪叫佢今日唔好返工幫手睇下女,點知佢話唔請,仲要叫我自己帶細bb去睇醫生,比佢返工;跟住又講不如唔好做啦,大家齊齊食屎啦,我聽到嘅時候,我當時嗰一刻好想速出走廊跳樓死咗佢一了百了,起碼唔使再同佢嘈呀,反正佢都唔理兩個女,更加唔理我啦,咁佢都唔理點解要我理呀。跟住佢返咗工我咪帶細bb去睇醫生囉,因為亞女係冇孤架,冇謂囉佢嚟搞,所以我就帶咗佢去睇醫生,連我自己都睇埋,點知細bb食完葯都唔退燒,咁我咪叫佢返嚟睇女囉,點知佢話唔返囉,我當時就仲嬲,仲想死。好采,大bb同我爸b唔理你仲有我理你,你唔好唔理我呀,我會聽話架啦,你唔好嬲啦,我聽到呢句先放低死嘅諗法。但係當我再問多佢一次嘅時候,佢堅持講唔返嚟,我又想死啦。
我真係唔明佢點解明知我有呢個病,都唔理,仲要比以前更加唔理我,我真係好想死呀!
因為我呢個病想快啲好番,就要得到家人嘅支持,最好就老公嘅支持,咁會最快好番,點知佢支持我之餘,仲咁對我,咁我生存仲有咩意義呀!
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