Today was a nice day before the second sms reached me

Why to ask me how i react to it??

Do i have a choice??

I was okay when the first sms requested me.

I read a lot of cheerful and positive books before and i knew that 

in order to let others to treat u well and care about u

u have to treat them nice and care them first

i did and i tried my best to do it .

however, nobody thought about me

i am not as strong as u guys all thought

i don't cry that easily because i don't want to show u guys that i am that weak

however, i can't take that much pressure all at once

I am already struggling so badly yesterday on my hw 

I worked on my hw and other stuff from 10:30am to 6pm

I read my stupid history book for almost 3 hours and worked on the assigned summer history hw for 1 hour

and then i read my summer reading book until i got so mad and impatient since i am not even half way done with the book

I practiced clarinet for another hour until I sweated so badly

by the way, yesterday was the hottest day in america for sure

I had to practice drawing too for one hour

just draw and draw and draw until i got so annoyed by it

yesterday, I was calm or blank-minded and just use that to force myself to work on hw

today, i am not calm

I really want to cry right now

I really feel extremely bad right now

I can't identify if it's the stress from all the work or that specific thing

History HW (about 60 pages to read and a lot of hw)... summer reading+additional hw

driving law (60 pages of new things to learn).... drawing class+practice everyday

practice clarinet 1 hour everyday..... housework...... start to learn music theory

new vocabs to memorize before taking the test in tutor....

Plz.... my life is desperate already.... no more sad things.... don't want to cry again