i had so much fun today so that i can't wait to record my current feeling down

my birthday party has just ended half an hour ago

now is 12:28am but i am not really tired even though i have class tomorrow at 8

today in teh morning, i was actually not looking forward to the party because i had a rash on my face and it's really itchy

furthermore, the construction workers were at my house today so that i didn't really want to pary

however, i have already invited 10 closest friends to come so that i couldn't cancel it

i worked on homework nad study for the whole morning and i was late when my friend came and picked me up

then, we went to ACI to take the test and i was dying in there because i had only 6 hours of sleep yesterday night and worked on SAT stuff for the whole morning

however, i still managed to live through it even though i think i did poorly this time

then, i went home and my friends began to come very quickly

they all wished me happy birthday again and each of them bought a present for me

then, we played wii, sang karoeke, made rice krispy, and listened to music before barbucue

then, we ate barbecue and sang more

afterward, we cut the cake and it was an ice cream cake from baskin robbins.... omg.... it was super super good

then, we went back to the house and opened the present

i was so so so surprised to find out that five of my friends bought me a very very expensive but adorable gift, a big big big Hello Kitty

it was so cute that i couldn't stop hugging the hellow kitty

then, everyone left by 10:30 but three of my closest friends didn't want to leave but play longer until 12

it is my first time of having a formal party because my birthday is either on school days or on examination days

i am very glad to have a party and everyone told me that they had a lot a lot of fun

I don't remember when was the last time i updated my diary

time is running out for me but i can't concentrate at all

i heard people said that the season you are born in is your favorite season

however, this is not the case

i am born in the early spring but i don't like it at all

spring is the season when i want to sleep the most

i hate it when the air is so stuffy and when the weather is so hot

i don't like my chemistry teacher

in class, i found out that he taught us the wrong thing

well... actually, he was playing the video, which is what the lessson is about, in class to lecture to us

then, he claimed that the video was wrong in this one concept about significant figures in pH

then, the video said that right concept twice but he said that the concept was wrong

however, i remembered that the video's concept from somewhere so that i digged for my notes which i took from the book

even the book said so about the concept in the video

then, i raised my hand to ask him gently about why is that wrong

then, he didnt even listen to my explanation and said that i didn't listen to him at all and i was taking too much time on that

today, i read another book and saw that my concept was right

OMG he yelled at me in class when i told him about it for two times

he made me to look stupid in front of the whole class when he was actually embarrassing himself

i understand now why someone would commit suicide just because of failing one exam

actually, the hit is pretty harsh

however, i believe that there's nothing impossible in my life

thus, there is no permanent failure

the only time when failure exists is when one gives up

however, i will never give up

i will try harder

in six weeks, i will get my grade up

i mean it

it has been a while since the last time i updated the diary

as i have expected, life after winter break is nothing but hell

i have been working very hard these few weeks in both track and field and academics

in track, we have to run so so so long that i have been losing weight since two weeks ago.  (i don't see that as a good sign)

whatever, today is a very special day for me

not my birthday, not my friend's birthday or any one's day

it's a significant day for my family - a three year mark of settlement in America

three years ago, my family and I arrived in this alien country

at this moment at 6:21pm, i think that i was on the way to my aunt's house, which used to be my home for 3 months, but i fell asleep in the car

when i looked out of the window, i saw this land, so gray and so rural, and i couldn't believe that this is America, the dream land of everyone

three years later, i am sitting in my house, my own house, doing homework and studying for AP Euro on World War II

in these three years, i saw my rapid accumulation of knowledge and growth in character

it is so unbelieveble that time has passed so fast and i am almost half way done with high school

this year has been a very very very fortunate and nice year for me because i had a few major breakthroughs

i have maintained a very good grade in history class, i have broken 2000 for SAT, I got my braces off, and i could drive daily

things have changed a lot but mostly positively

this diary is a permanent memory of my life which i will be able to look back years later

i wonder what my next year's Feb 8 will be like?

As anxious as the one in 2007? As competitive and tiring as the one in 2010?

i can't believe that January is almost over

this month has passed very fast for me because i didn't even think that February is just around the edge

maybe i have been using my time at the full extent,  l feel like i have learned a lot this month but also so exhausted

umm..... school is nothing special for me but just days of boredom and loads of homework

other than that, winter is leaving but then it is still pretty cold in the morning

what is bad about the weather in America is that it is so so so cold in the morning ~44 degrees and ~75 degrees since afternoon

therefore, i have to wear a thick sweater in the morning but have to take off everything i can by lunch

then, i have to carry the sweater around and i hate to do that

there's approximately 4.5 months of school left and everything would be over

however, i don't find this fact as a great relief because the work load would be heavier once summer takes place

well... spring break is coming and i am so so so excited for it