It has been a while since i have posted my diary

it is barely 11:21am when i am in my pride class and having free time to do homework

the reason my PRIDE class which is like your LS class is so long is that we have an assembly today

i really like to share the feeling after attending to the assembly

this assembly is one where the emergency room nurse from the state of Maine came to our school to lecture us on the effect of using drugs and alcohol

i haven't thought that big a negative effect drugs had on people but i would swear that i would never try

however, the nurse prepared a lot of pictures of comparing the people who used drug before and after

the most irritating picture was a series of pictures of a lady who used drug continuously for ten years in which she took one picture every year

aside from the change of her hair style, her face and the physical feature had changed so much that she aged so rapidly in ten years

at age of 30, her face was ghast and her cheek was so thin that only her cheekbones are showing

however, i could still see that she had once been a very pretty white girl but drug had eroded her beauty

then, every year, the wrinkles on her face increased and the last picture of hers at age of 40 looked like an 80 years old old lady

then, the nurse showed us more pictures of how would drug affect our teeth and gum

picture after picture, some laughed so loud at the aging lady and some made the irritating noise to show their astonishment at the mouth of those who used drugs

however, i remained so quiet all the way because i was neither irritated by the disgusting pictures nor making fun of those who used drugs and became so ugly

instead, i pitied them so much and i would like to help to prevent that from happening

at that moment, i was adamant on my decision of being a doctor in the future in the emergency room

thus, i would like to travel in America and in other foreign countries to spread the words of not using drugs and how to help people when they were in need

facing those innocent ones who undermined the effect of drug, i think that scaring them would be the only choice

don't know how to express my happiness

first of all, it is so so so cold today and the weather is gloomy

however, it didn't affect my mood

i was so happy becuase i don't have to run today due to the tornado warning

then, we got to stay longer in chinese class and it is my favorite class

then, i went home and relax even though tomorrow is the real final exam

then, i watched drama and had fun

finally, i checked my math grade online for today's final part I and i got 100%%%%%%

i am so freaking happy!!!!!!!!!

i feel so successful just to get such a high grade

my hard work is paid off because i was experiencing downturn in math since december

then, i devoted a lot of time during winter break to improve math and to review and i got it!!!

thanks thank you for my luck!!!

such a rainy day supposed to be a gloomy day

in others' eyes, my day is very disconsolate because of the crazy and busy schedule from 6:30am to 3:30am non-stop for homework adn activities

finally, i can sit down today and work

even thought it is barely 12:50pm now, i am sort of sleepy but i am eager to work

doing things other than school work for two days is something i am not used to

now, i finally have a chance to sit down and i would like to study three subjects today for final: pre-calc, AP Euro, and Chemistry, in additiont to SAT stuff

no matter what happens today, i would work until my eyeballs come out because i am determined and the plan in indomitable

what would life be without final and the new semster didn't start yet??

what would life be on this Thursday which is three days later

what would life be without track for the whole week because of the continuous rain for the whole week

what would life be on Friday when we are released from school and we have no homework to cram in?

so many things are going on in my mind and i can't escape the thoughts

It has been forever since i last updated my diary

things are going on okay for me except for a few unhappiness in school

well.... failures in subjects can always be improved but then the hardship in track practice is never lessened

now, we started the crazy track practice where we just ran 6 miles yesterday with just three stops for street lights

i am complaining again for the hardship in track even though i told myself not to

finals, movie project, tests, homework, drawing, driving, SAT, and the burden in running are taking away my life and my energy

i am always exhausted and i would like to work harder but i just can't

oh well... things would always find a way out but i am more worried about next year

i have a chance to not do cross-country next year but then i don't know if i should skip it or not because more activity would look good on my college application

however, i am taking all the hard and crazy classes next year that i am afraid i would die from running and that

i don't know.... let's focus on the final tomorrow first

i am so jealous of you guys because most of you are done with final already

more, i heard that you guys are going back to elementary school today becasue cherry just called me

what a great thing it is to go back and enjoy life with old friends

never mind about that, next week after final, i can go watch movie with friends, go to friend's house to sleep-over and then read my favorite books!!!!

heaven is waiting for me after hardship

strive for the last four days!!!!

last day of the year

even though i don't ahve specific feeling right now, i think that i have to use today to conclude my year

actually, the year of 2009 might be best year so far because of the academic success

however, that only applies to me for the first 11 months of the year

december is not a pleasant month for me becuase i am experiencing downfall in one of my favoriate subjects

i know that there is no way i should procristinate in anything becuase i should be able to work without rest

isn't that what i am intending to do for my whole life

however, i fail... i don't have to motivation or determination to do it

when people around you are not supporting but discouraging you, you will find out how hard it is to concentrate or to be determined

right now, there is only three more days until school starts

this year has passed by at a moderate speed and so did this break

the first week of this break passed by quickly becuase i have been working my head off so that time was nothing to me

however, the second week of this break is so pleasant becyase i finally get a chance to enjoy my life nad my house since school started

relaxation is the biggest enemy of hardwork and determination

i don't feel the courage of motivation to work as hard as i did for four months

i am not sure if i would keep up with my hardwork and do good in every subject and every field

however, 2010 is a new year and a new start

if i work harder this year, everything would eventually be at ease for me

just have to work work work for 2.5 years and peace would come

i can't wait for it but i have to work for it

let's all say goodbye to 2009 and be refresh again in the new year

happy new year