Today is one of the nicest days after i come back from hk

i am an easily satisfied person

i can be very happy already with drama and msn

however, i have more today

i went to ACI today (tutoring place) and got my result back

i found out that there's still a huge distance from my dream

i have to work extremely hard for this year and the next summer in order to reach my dream college

omg.... that requires a lot of work... it's going to kill me for sure

will i have time to watch drama anymore?? i doubt it.... then my life will be desperate after all

this year has a lot of hard subjects but bad teachers.. which means that i have to learn and study most of the things by myself in order to get a good grade

then... i have cross country... three hours of practice every week day with some crazy competition every week... it's going to kill me under this hot weather and long run

more.... there's ACI on fri 3:30 right after school to 7pm

ACI on every Sat 8am to 2:30pm... the passing grade for all the hw and quizzes are 80%!!!! that's insane

more, driving test coming up.... drawing class every week plus hw.... music theory test

i am going to have an extremely hard year this year

how come i have all this ideas back again??

it's because i just had my happiest moment

i saw my friends on the webcam again

same as my prediction... i had a lot of fun with them.. chat a lot and talk about some nonsense

i think we can continue the talk for a long time... however, i had some other feelings when they were laughing

the gap between us is too big.... too big for me to join their group

even though i hear them and can see their faces, the feeling is different

i felt like i am not in their group and i am only an observer

how come life has to be full of separations and dissappointments??

why can't i enjoy that happiest moment without those thoughts popping in  my mind

i really want to be with u guys right now and chat in cherry's house and play together

i really want to but there's still 2 years and 10 months

i am looking forward for the time to come and we can play crazily for a whole month

i hope that everyone is still the same after all

plz!! give me a chance to play with u guys crazily

give me this happiest happiness after 3 years of hard work

guess what?? the hard days will begin tomorrow

no more wasting time on anything..... work hard on hw and then get everything done for school

that's my plan and i have to do it

LIFE?? What does it mean to me?? hard work... that's the only answer i can think of