OMG!

i can't believe that today is tuesday again and i have to go to school

i used to think that i have already get rid with the unwanting feeling toward school.

however, i realized that i didn't............ i really don't wnat to go to school

i am lack of sleep for the whole week and yesterday, the last day of my 3 day holiday, i could finally sleep 11 hours but i am lack of sleep today again

i am so frustrated right now for something about school

i am still thinking if i should go to the meeting of mock trial at school

mock trial is a mock court that different people took different positions and they debated on the team

i am really interested in it but then i am afraid to join the team

i am afraid that people will laugh at me as an immigrant joining those debate teams

i don't know if i should go and try for it

i need to have more activities because i need them for college transcript

omg!! how come colleges want so many things from us

cross country is killing me already and there's more nad more troubles and decisions in front of me

i don't know how to solve them and i am afraid to solve them

seriously, guys,  life is extremely tough

people told me that these three years are going to be the toughest school life and after that, everything is over and i can enjoy my life in college

however, someone else told me that these three years are tough BUT the college life is tougher because people in there are all genius and u have to compete against them

omg!! what does it mean?

do i have to suffer until i graduate from high school and i have to suffer more when i graduate from college?

and then i have to worry about my career and get a job and get money?

what the heck??? i have to really stop thinking and concentrate on my hw at 7:38am

i don't wnat to go to after school tutoring today..... but i have to go for extra credit.. i so want to sleep right now...... i don't wnat to run....life life life