Today is like a break-through for me

i am proud of myself

seriously, no sarcasm, not being self-centered

i am so so so happy that i made it

today is the hottest day ever since school starts

i think it reached over 105 degrees Fahrenheit because we had to postpone the cross country race for 1 hour

at 1pm, when i was walking up the stairs to go the 6th period, the air was so stuffy that i could barely breathe

at that time, i was thinking what will happen when i run the race later on of the day

then, i was struggling whether to run the race or not and i was like decide it when i get to there

then, i worked on hw for one hour and then the coach asked us to get ready

i was willing to do so at that time and then the coach gave us the last commend before the race

he told us that he knew that the weather is tough today and he needs everyone to run

i was thinking "Oh yeah.. whatever u say"

and then he said directly to me in front of the other girls that Kathleen, u get it?

he told me before that he knew that it's tough for me because i have never been the below middle group of anything

he knew that i am always the top of the group and he encouraged me before the race

he told me that the team needs me and he needs me also

i was so delighted after he said it because he ensured my existence

then, the race was very tough but i kept encouraging myself with some kinds of motivations

finally, under the hottest weather, i finished the race and actuallly improved 7 seconds

i was surpised that i improved because i thought i got slower

even though i am nnow in the middle of the group, i don't mind anymore

it's a challenge for me and i knew that

i am not built as an athlete and i had to use all my efforts to help myself to be one

i have to always be hopeful and should not give up