somehow, i realized that my daily routine is to complain and panick

everyday after i wake up, i think about what should i do today and how much work i have

then, i start to worry and be nervous on whether i could finish all my work

until now, i realized that i complain too much

i remember that during the summer vacation, i told myself not to complain anymore for my life because a lot of people are having a tougher one

however, it's a completely different story right now because i start to complain a lot to my friends

that's not right and it should not be like that

i am procastinating too much everyday and that's why i am not finishing my work on time

sometimes, i set a too crazy schedule for myself and i would then slack off to watch drama because the homework is too tough or too annoying

i started to give excuses to let myself to go easy on the work

however, that's not right

i have suffered only 1/6 of the school year nad i started to not want to work

that's impossible nad i have to work harder

i have to get 5s on the AP tests and i have to do well in SAT

however, everyone can see my tiredness on my face by now

even the drawing class teacher can tell my difference today from normal days

i think that i am exhausted

i think that my life is way too tough