pressure is pressing firmly on my body that i could hardly breathe

i am so so so so tired right now that i can go on no more

i thought that i changed, i really did think that

however, it's all illusion

after all, i am just as weak and not determinated as i was before

the more pressure i have, the worse i would perform

now, everything is just getting on me and i could not think right

i am sometimes thankful for my great and fruitful life

other time, i find it very contradictory since i didn't really know what i am aiming for

to me, the future is unknown and i am lost

where am i?

what should i do? i don't know i really don't know