i woke uup early at seven in the morning today for no reason but to volunteer

today is the food distribution day for the homeless people so that we have to arrive there at 8:30 to help to pack up

since i have already wasted a day yesterday doing too little thing, i decided to wake up earlier to work so that i can spend my day wisely

after coming back from the work, i was exhausted becuase we worked like slaves

there were only 5 of us working there and packed up 62 boxes of toys and twenty something bags of them

it was so tiring and so filthy in there

i came home and started working madly becuase i have to do so in order to improve

i put a lot of expectations on myself this break to improve in every area that i am not excelled in

indeed, there are many of them

when i was so tired and depressed in teh afternoon, i checked my email and i was delighted afteward becuase of the comforting letter

i worked until 8, dinner time and i was very happy to announce my success of the day for working without rest

aside from  my happiness and pround, i was condemned with a sharp sentence, "if she wants to live without life, go for it" from my brother

at that moment, he depressed me because i used to be very pround with my accomplishment and i thought that it was very impressive

even so,  he couldn't alter my determination becuase i know what i want to do

to him, going to an okay college and socailize wiht his friends are his plans

to me, i have stricter disciplines and schedules for myself to follow after because i understand very well that without hardwork, i would receive nothing in return

therefore, i must work extremely hard this year and next year and the rest of my life to achieve my goals

i am not a person wthout life

i have friends, good friends, and best friends

i want life and fame