A desperate soul seeking something in his life.....

Waiting for changes yet new obstacles lay in front of the path...

New nightmares challenge him to sleep...

New enemies unstabiling his safety..

    This is "Part of one's Life~'

(+)(+)Have you ever wonder what foolish things have you done in the past,who have you hurt?What upset feeling have you caused?Well...i do...Another daylight passes in front of my naked eyes, laying on my bed under the reflection of shinning stars thinking of the past.Asking myself some silly questions, and it drifted me to a enchanting world of my past...

      I was a kid back then with a confuse mind.Not knowing what is right or wrong.It started out in a school day,i was a school prefect, a lazy one i guess.....Everytime the chinese lessons begin, i awlays desperately wan to leave the class, cause i dislike the teacher and i didn't do a mountain of homework given by her..My results was not flying with colours..The worst part is, lies come out from my sexy lips(just kidding) when she ask me questions.....I didn't know what to do with an empty mind..Soon she reliased everything was just a bluff.My heart was pumping very quick when i was in her class during the chiense lesson.Finally she yelled out: "Lee Han He,how long did you wan to continue like this..Everyday i had breakfast with ur mum( a dentist in the school) lieing her that your homework was done, your grades were top in the class but yet u dissappointed me.Have you ever consider the hardwork done by your parent to give you a nice education,what have you done to honour her?"......At that sec,i can felt the body heat, the pumping sound of my heart.It was a shame and a big lost during a war...I went home silently with a hole in my heart tat day.

    At night i was thinking this problem feeling very desperate,unthankful,useless,disguised..I was planning to escape from this problem once and for all, therefore i planned to run away during the full moon..I set an alarm clock at 3 o clock...After a few hours of sleep, the sound of an alarm finally tricker off.My eyes were open staring emptly into the air.My mind recall the problem again..I didn't know what to do,the courage once in my heart disappear.So i decided to wait for tommorow and continue to sleep.'ho,Ho time for school' my mum say..My body was lazy to move thinking the same problem but i continue to get prepared.Like ussual i follow my mum's car to school... As soon as i get into the car, a gospel lay on the seat beside me.I reached out my cold hand and openned it, so many lyrics lay inside it.Without any reason my heart sings the songs inside it,thinking of asking god's help....Soon, the car come to a stop in front of the traffic lights,many cars were waitting for their turns..At this monment, my desperate heart and my mind was very confusing...My shoulder was like bearing a heavy cross..I was thinking the same action i should have taken last night.By looking at the car's door, my heart was pounding hard again,thinking of what should i do next.Fingers started to shiver under the cold temperature in the car..Rising in the mid-air my hand reaching towards the door. (+)(+)