等待可以是一種享受...
等待可以是一種煎熬...
帶著期盼的等待最是令人難受...
一天的勞累過後...一份小小的希望落空了..
令人不禁有點點的失落感...
是我看得太重了嗎?!
大概不應該會是這樣吧!
整天的心情就跟外頭的天空般...
灰灰沉沉...還下著夾有寒風的細雨...
刺骨..痛心..
這樣的天空...這樣的心情..
令人精神難以抖擻...
看了一套又一套的電視劇...
本想藉以解憂消困...
這個想法原來太天真...
什麼憂..什麼愁..
仍舊縈繞在身旁...久久不散...
愈是叫自己別再想..
愈是把自己推近懸崖...
聯想力豐富或許是我的優點..
但恐怕這亦是致命之處..
多麼想自己思想簡單些..
不要想東想西..把自己陷於虛幻的困境中...
到底我是怎麼了?
間歇性心情不佳?
若不是為了明天的測驗..
我大抵已經在跟朋友苦訴了..
零晨時分...
找一個人...談何容易?!
在這兒發發瘋比較實際....
It's really difficult for me not to breathe a word to anyone...
Could I let the cat out of the bag?
It's not necessary to let it spread like wildfire...
but... I just don't to be a dark horse keeping all the things under my hat...
It's stressful...
In fact.. I am not as strong as you can see..
I'm a ordinary girl..I'm vulnerable..I'm weak..
I can't imagine that I need to live in a world without family and friends..
For me... supports from others are essential element of my motivation..
I am not cold-bloody... I am not made of iron..
My blood is warm...and my heart is beating..
I desire concerns...
I know that it must be a little bit greedy for me to have such wants..
The want of human is unlimited...isn't?
How can I control my emotions?
How can I control my mind?
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