I'm so so so sick today...ToT So So So sick... (Why do I feel like I'm "so sick"?? -_-^)

I've found that I'm occationally thinking about my form 1 school life...

That was my happiest but also the quickest academic year... ToT

I miss my friends... My friends, my good friends, those didn't change ones.

Time flies (this is from chicken's speech some days ago. -_-^ I don't actually lie this from its mouth =_=)

The time runs as the world changes.

It went too fast. Too fast that I don't feel like I can catch up. I can't catch up with its changes.

I used to be doing my homework myself, not copying (even when I'm not sure about the answer -_-^).

I used to be putting up hands when teachers ask questions.

I used to be asking teachers when I don't understand.

I used to be going home early.

I used to tell every bad things to my friends.

I used to show my disatisfied.

I used to laugh a lot.

I used to be blaming myself and the others.

But when I came to form 1,

everything changed.

I started asking others about things that I don't understand, not the teachers.

I started shutting up my mouth when complaintments wanted to come out.

I started smiling even when I wasn't wanting to.

I started pretending.

I started shouting or yelling when I feel ill.

I started being quiet and using a point of observing to look at the class.

I started to observe.

And I found things that I wasn't used to believe in.

I started to keep slient about things that weren't fair.

Because there are too much, too many things, that aren't fair. And wouldn't and can't be fair.

My orginal personality kept me believing and trusting.

I found friends. Friends that look brave and strong outside, but weak inside.

Like me.

The problem wasn't so serious in form 1.

I had friends like San, like K, like Mk... (all are not real names ^-^ coz I don't want to be hitten...^_^)

We have all changed.

I have changed to be a more observing person, more extreme, more to hide my feelings,"personality no.4".

San have changed to be more seemed to not be care the others, to be bad(quite bad -_-^).

K have changed to be having a stronger shell, and a prouder heart (she doesn't seem to realize -_-^)

Mk... -_-^ became a pride for her look. (I look like an ant in front of her....)

Fine...

I got no time to write now... /_\ (I'll explain -_-^ to myself...)