今日學左放既英文補課最尾個部分係要我地2人一組咁讀英文晨讀,但係當我出去問一D女同學,問佢係係咪已經有組,個個都話有...差唔多排到我個時,我行前去同老師講我冇組,之後老師就幫我搵左一个啱啱讀完既女同學同我組,我已經開始覺得唔係好開心。之後另外一個平時好多嘴既女同學指住我笑笑口咁話我「SINGLE WOMAN」,我其實好想忍咖,無奈我係一個軟弱既人,我D眼淚湧哂上眼眶...之後我就放底D野,走左入廁所哭。本來我係諗住等到廁所冇哂人先出返去,出到去洗完手,望返鏡入面既自己,真係好嚇人啊...眼,耳,口,鼻都紅哂,對眼D紅筋都出哂黎......之後我黎入課室,D平時唔係幾熟既朋友會行埋黎講兩句叫我唔好喊或都問我有冇事...好朋友??我升左中四既文科班入面,一個都冇...

我覺得有一件事我係好失敗咖...平時成日唔同朋友出街,就用冇興趣做藉口,其實只不過係我冇自信,唔敢出街見人咋嘛。同老師講話要自己一個人單丁位,會專心D讀書,其實只不過係自己唔識得點同人相處。平時要做D唔係好鍾意既野或者俾人吩咐,我都只會亦來順受,只係自己不想野人厭,但係我又何賞唔想拒絕...?!同同學相處都係一樣,佢地講乜都會和義佢地,其實只過係想同有一種比較合群既感覺,但係我又何賞唔係有自己既一套諗法呢?

咁樣既自己好冇意義啊?!即使平時做左咁多,但係點解到我需要某某既時候,我身邊一個人都冇,而且係要老師黎忙我點名叫某某黎幫我啊?!雖然我唔係一個風頭人物,我自問咁冇用既自己平時都冇做過D咩壞事,做事都好安分守紀啊!但係點解仲要俾人話我係「SINGLE WOMAN」啊?!

我真係感到好悲哀啊,點解我做人做到咁冇用?!