This weekend started out badly, and has yet to end, so lets hope it doesnt end on a bad note, making for one hell of a week.

First my dad come home. He hasn't been home for nearly two months. Whenever my stepmum and him get together, they are always arguing. Always, they never stop. It is not good atmosphere for me to be in, it makes me stressed. = =
Well my dad yell at me for being on the computer. it is the first time we talk to eachother and he yells at me at 7:00 in the morn'. I already know that the weekend is going to be a bad one.
All day I am working on ACT, except then something good happens! I get to go to the mall with Kit, Ayaka, Andrew, Amy, and Mary!! It was SO much fun! I love them all very much, they are very good friends!

Then the next night (I can't even remember what happened during the day, I don't know why...haha) we went bowling and then when we come home, they are arguing again. yelling and being annoying, and I start crying but very silent, no one even knows I am crying. Then my dad says something to me and starts arguing with me, and I am just trying to eat my dinner. he is yelling and it makes me cry harder, and louder. he make fun of me and say "ohh, cry" in a baby voice, it makes me cry harder. I start yelling about how he shouldn't come to our home if he is only going to argue with everyone. I start bawling and shaking. I can't stop shaking. Even when I am not crying, I am shaking. I go upstairs and cry for almost 10 minutes straight. I want to call Kit, but there is nothing for me to say, and it is nearly 1 am. I text my friend but then I decide not to bother him with my problems. :(

The next day~today~I have to work at 8am. My dad is already arguing before I leave the car for work when he drop me off...which makes me in a sad mood. it is my birthday and I am working at McDonalds. I am thinking about ONE thing only, and that is that Kit is going to stay the night and we are going to watch scary movies and scream and giggle and be like best friends are.
The work day is long, but ends early when she asks me if I want to go home early! I shout "YES!" and I jump up and down, and do a little "happy" dance (american tradition, Kit ^^). Everyone knew how excited I was for my friends to stay the night! I wasn't sure about Ayaka still, and was planning to call her soon.

I walked to the Goodwill, to find some things, I was bored and I like the snow. When I am trying clothes on, Mary (Kits cousin) calls me and says that Kit cannot come tonight because she is sick. I said okay, and then we hang up. then I look in the mirror and say "do not cry, its okay" but I can't help it. It's like a little kid who has ice cream cone fall on the floor. or lost something special. it is gone, and I start crying, but only a little because I am in the store, and I don't want to make a scene.

I got some shirts and walked to RePets, which is a place where they have animals that no one wants, so they can be adopted. Sometimes after work I go there to pet the animals. There is one kitty that plays with my fingers, my strings, and soon, we are playing with my phone charm. she understands that I am sad, and shares my sadness. we are both caged, helpless animals trying desperatley to make the best of life, and to just survive. we play some more before I leave and call my stepmum. I tell her I am ready to leave.

My dad is shocked to hear that Kit can't come. He asks me if I want Chinese food. haha, is that supposed to replace Kit? oh well. I say thank you in Chinese to the woman who gives me food. She smiles VERY big haha, and I feel stupid because I am American, but proud a little. >.>

Then my parents give me presents. my stepmum gives me a sewing machine, because I like to sew things, and make things! it is very thoughtful! Then my dad gives me a paper from the computer that says he bought two tickets to see Tegan and Sara. then I say "so we are going?" And he says, "you can go with another friend, if you want" which is VERY IMPORTANT because he never trust me like that before! yay getting older!! I say thank you, and I almost wish I can cry because I am so happy and so that i look like I care. I really am so happy, but I know i looked like I didn't care very much. It's because even though they were so wonderful, i was still sad about the weekend.

 Then I babysit. I am still kind of babysitting, but he is asleep. I am very tired myself. then Kit gave me her present! IT IS AMAZING!! Kit is such a good friend, and I tell her how sometimes I think she pretends to like me because I know I am amazing. and plus...I am American, and maybe I'm the only person who cares. = =
I don't know. But it is like a slideshow with poems and pictures and thoughtful words from her. It is better than anything she could have bought for me. I love it so much, and I cried when I watched it. I miss Kit :'(

Anyway, i am so tired, I can barely keep my eyes open. They are burning. I guess I will go now.
nighnight.

ps) COMMENT KIT! AND PUT UP PICTURES!!  ^_^ I LOVE YOU~