this morning when i had pe, we play somet like baseball i dont really know whats it call...i was wiv sharni twinie becky amanda n heather. <--sorry if i missed out anyone...the opposite team is jodie gemma ela charmaine katie n rach... when it was my turn, i just ran down wivout touching the pole thing, then the fucking fatty bitch jodie adams shouted at me r8 loud... <--sorry for my swearing but i dont like the swear words in chinese so i type this in english  

she went like " what u doin u need to touch that oh fuck sake" somet like that...

she is too rude my godd such a manlike bitch, bastard!!! i dont know what else can i use to describe in order to release a little bit of my fucking anger r8 now!!!!

i really dunno what the hell is this school or even this country goin on... what the fuck is it teaching the students ... just leave them alone n do what they like?!!!

after that i said sorry to her coz i know that really was my fault for not touching the pole... but i dun think she needed to shout at me like that... i know why they dun like me n keep bullying me in any ways its because im better than them...much more better...i took their 20pounds vouchers n i can play music i can do maths n my school work is far more better than theirs....they then went jealous... its not fucking fair that they hv to bully me when im better than them!!! they are bad just because they dun pay their effort to study to learn, instead of shout messing around during lessons!!!

im really sooo quiet at school coz my english is not good n i cant chat wiv them that fluently... im really trying to improve u know but they just dun even give me a chance! is it really r8 fun to laugh at me or bully me?!! im also a human! theres no differences between white ppl asia ppl n black ppl!!! theres just differences between good ppl n bad ppl!! huh i know youre fuckin white ppl, so what?!! u cant do anything better than meh!!! what are u borned for?!! just doin non sense things?! or being racis?!!! fuck off!!!!!

im really lookin forwad to see what the hell youre goin to do or goin to be when u ppl grow up... bagger?! ha! u dun even got a single talent!! just wasting the resources in the world!!! stop being like a worm plzz...use your brain to think what u meant to do... n plz stop being fucking racis on me n other foreign ppl who cant speak english tht well!! oh plz u know what... some ov u even cant spell the word radio!! what the fuck! why are u an english ppl!?!!!! haha what a shame~!!

at break time, im really so upset so i went into the toilet n cried out! letting no one know!! my tear drop went onto the floor, i hope it can wash away the crime what u ppl hv done! i bet its the first time that i went like that...... i never cried in school for being bullied in shcc be4... coz i know in shcc, i wont be bullied... though theres still some faggots like sn ftang... but i wont cry! becoz theyre once my best fds!!! oh my god why did i talk about this topic agen! more n more things that comes out of my mind n upset me!!! whatever...

im really soo unhappy but luckily i still got my good buddy cathy... shes always wiv me, supporting me... why cant all white ppl do like her?! shes white aswell!!! bloody hell.~! when i get hm, my mum phoned me n i finally told her everything... coz i know im not gonna hide everything in my heart n swallow them by myself... im not tough enough to do this...i will really be ill if i do that......"

i told mum tht i want to come bk n study... but she immediately said NO... oh i feel really disappointed!!! i miz my hometown sooo bad!! i miz everything in it! but my mum wont let me go bk....... after a while, my dad rang me... he comforted me a lot n i really feel much more better... he said he does want me to come bk too... but after some time, he started to tell me to think twice or somet, just tell me not to decide it that quick... i know that he wants me to stay, for my future, but he said those things at first just becoz he wanted me to be happy... i love you dad... mum aswell, though u wont let me back lol~

after tea, i talked to auntie, as dad told me to, for sure i didnt tell her i want to go bk to mc... just told her that i was bullied, n she said i hv to make good relationships wiv fds, then we can fight the evil ppl 2gether... though theres still no spaces in those 2 top schools, i hv to stay n try my best... actually the only reason tht i dun want to go to tt, is becoz ryans there, i really dun want to see him,,, i want to go to ke7, coz emmas there...n i think its a better skool... nomatter how i think, how i imagine, theres still no space! haha stupid me... thank you auntie i feel much much more better now after listening to you...... you know what youre just like my mum, i love u too......

though i still want to go bk to mc so much, i know im gonna miz auntie them ppl...... aii...n i miz cathy... if i cant go bk to study, i will do my best in this fucking skool... coz i know that will be the best way to make myself become happier~~

still angry wiv u ppl huh jodie adams!!!!!