你實在是傷我傷得太深了...

最怕空氣突然安靜　最怕朋友突然的關心
最怕回憶　突然翻滾絞痛著 不平息
最怕突然　聽到你的消息
想念如果會有聲音　不願那是悲傷的哭泣
事到如今　終於讓自己屬於　我自己
只剩眼淚　還騙不過自己
突然好想你　你會在哪裡　過得快樂或委屈
突然好想你　突然鋒利的回憶　突然模糊的眼睛

我們像一首最美麗的歌曲　變成兩部悲傷的電影
為什麼你　帶我走過最難忘的旅行
然後留下　最痛的紀念品

我們　那麼甜那麼美那麼相信　那麼瘋那麼熱烈的曾經
為何我們還是要奔向各算的幸福和遺憾中老去

突然好想你　你會在哪裡　過得快樂或委屈
突然好想你　突然鋒利的回憶　突然模糊的眼睛

最怕空氣突然安靜　最怕朋友突然的關心
最怕回憶　突然翻滾絞痛著　不平息
最怕突然　聽到你的消息
最怕此生　已經決心自己過　沒有你　卻又突然　聽到你的消息

 話說好似又一個星期...

都冇打過...

平時番去個D都OK悶下

掉左課室...都冇咩分別...都依然係好熱...

D冷氣開半個鐘先凍...

行少左一層冇咁赲都好既...

而且靜左好多都係好事...

星期日出去聽concert...

好遠....

琴日唔知做咩心情好差...

係度係咁彈結他令自己唔諗其他野...

結果彈到甩皮既....

今日HEA左半日..

做埋剩低D功課...

仲有死人ICT SBA...都唔知要做咩...

聽日又比人鬧

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也許...害怕得太多...很快就會成真的了...

愈覺得自己渺小...最終就會被遺忘了...

講到尾..自己究竟有幾著緊...就只有自己知了...

如果真的如我害怕的一樣...那真的沒有什麼辦法

 其實冇咩特別好講--

手球...幾好玩..

MATHS FT...炒到應一應...超難--

係好難得中文FT有51分....有曬尊嚴啦XD

其他遲D再講--

彈左一晚結他超赲...

ironic...

 超眼訓呀--明明訓左6個鐘..

都唔知搞咩==訓極都係咁...-口-

只希望..

明天今日...別要再失眠

好啦--琴日個篇野只係無聊咁轉下style姐=="

不過既然咁大迴響都係唔玩啦--

講到咁白都唔好玩既~

都係好似之前咁等人估估下...

 其實真係一早就想打架啦...

不過真係懶得濟...就由上個星期日開始打起啦=="囧...

朝早去左拜山...和合石...原來咁快又7年啦...下年就唔係再去個度...

其實我都冇咩感覺...因為知道死左既都唔會係個度...

一年去一次...都唔顯得係有咩心意...當然尊重上梗係要去啦...

我都知道...我唔可以再向後睇啦...如果唔係我都唔知點生活落去...

拜完山又係照舊去隔黎個涼亭食下D雞個D野=="

食左兩隻脾之後已經係超飽...

搞到2點就走左..

跟呀爸車去左九龍灣...個陣先2點幾..

MEGABOX雖然多左D咩JUSCO個D..

但都係一個超悶既商場..冇咩特別野睇...

之後又行左去德褔...超多人...但又唔見好多野行..

去HMV試下隻MARSHALL既HEADPHONE..

成1000蚊...我個隻400幾既都拍得住佢呀...

之後行到3點幾已經悶到頂唔住...

結果離開大隊出去行...搭車去左沙田=="

行左一陣..本來諗住去IKEA食下D超好食既熱狗/其他野..

結果D人多到痴線...排隊都分分鐘40個人..

最後係間coffee shop 度settle左..

其實都想過下D鬼佬式既星期日下晝嫁啦...

都真係幾舒服既...拋低到煩惱...心境好平靜...

結果係個度坐左個幾鐘...

結果都係要番九龍灣食飯既...

由德福去MEGABOX個面真係3分鐘炸ma....

我知道你根本就唔會有時間陪我..

所以我真係唔介意特登去搵你...

就算幫你做野我都真係好開心...

就算係付出都比我之前做過既好多野滿足...

去到MEGABOX對面個間鍾菜..

明明係食一個餐10幾個送...

但唔知點解佢一個鐘就可以上曬全部野食埋走人...

之後呀媽話要陪人...

唯有個德褔落車打左幾舖機啦...

當做運動都好既....

係咪唔同台個D SMS成日都DELAY呢..

10點SD黎既SMS...我1點先收到..囧

星期一簡直係悶死啦...多左一日假

4點幾之前都係係屋企hea.... 好彩係家長既結婚紀念日..

結果呀媽放左工就去左東涌食buffet...

去到個陣5點都未到...結果就係個度行左陣...

真係好一個邊緣城市... 東薈城變左專比大陸人買野既OUTLET...

而且一D都唔平...唔岩香港人行..

富東商場又真係咩都冇咁濟...超慘...

結果係個度悶死左..

最後拍左架車係東涌碼頭HEA左陣...

最衰天氣唔好..拎支738去都影到飛機好清...

而且都幾舒服..

之後就去左酒店度等..

算係睇到日落掛...

個度D野都幾好食...最然選擇唔太多..

D吞拿魚真係成隻切出黎嫁..

全部拖羅都係曬度...就梗係唔好浪費啦...

仲有D燒牛肉同意粉都好正...值得一試..

而且個度反而唔算好多大陸人...而且都OK斯文...

係唯一太少野飲--飲得太多茶搞到訓唔著...

星期二..冇咩好講...唔講算...

星期三...PHY FT... 老實講首先真係溫書溫唔夠..

再加埋真係前一晚訓得勁差...結果做左一陣頭已經暈緊..

又放走左D止暈藥...

都預左死緊..但求合格(個陣估有3字頭掛..)

結果第二日派卷...第一題LQ唔記得x g 5分冇左..

都算啦..27分 PASS算啦..

點知: MC改錯左,扣一分...

咁就死左..

PHY第一次唔合格...唉失敗..

MATHS都唔合格..好多X寫左做+...如果唔係都有30幾分..真慘

不過算啦..心情好唔計教...

LUNCH要去北角上ENG D 咩workshop...

最煩既一PART係要上車食LUNCH..又要食M記...

食完立即第二日爆左幾粒瘡... 唉呀好樣衰呀..

不過得我一個帶相機去又真係幾好玩既...

去到同ERIC 坐都超多GAG位...

再加埋大合照XD , 我好衰牙=] 唔好打我啦xD

結果由於SU在場我又廢事比佢知我成日BLOCK佢就冇封到佢..

搞到好多唔出得街既相都冇得POST啦...要既私下交流下=="

個COURSE都冇想象中咁悶...搭車都玩得幾開心呀...

放學好快就番左屋企...明明10點話想訓結果都MSN到12點既...算啦=="

星期五...一向都係我最開心既一日...

上堂就冇咩特別嫁啦..PE 上手球都算幾好玩既,

但傳波...SU同仲有唔知邊個都完全唔識比力..

傳近既就鬼死咁大力...遠既又唔夠力wor...Super Undeniably  SUCKS

不過算啦唉..都預左佢係咁....

其餘都冇咩特別... CHEM多左之前個個sniper係度錄野...冇得訓教...

放左學立即沖番屋企訓教...超赲lor--

之後6點幾又要起過...落去食左D野又出發又元朗補習...都算係幾開心既...

起碼影到D好難先影到既相==囧  不過都覺得自己影得麻麻,好少自拍ma--又可能反襯底下我覺得自己好樣衰..

星期六LEE下先火...

歷城記比賽... FAIL...係沙田開始

做LEE D定向最重要就係PLANNING...佢地(幕後)都真係好FAIL下..

一開始老點我地入邨已經浪費左我地半粒鐘--

之後仲叫我地跑番轉頭...咪玩啦..

結果佢地死都要我地跟佢個PLAN..個下我計一計已經知冇可能會夠時間..

結果果然係衰左既...佢地跑跑跑跑--我行既都係差佢地1分鐘都冇...==

同佢地講左跑都冇用嫁啦...徒然...

之後FINISH係大坑..完左就順度落左去世貿玩左2舖機...==

冇帶棍.個度D棍重到呀...好快就走左..

搭962番==一檢討番就知自己個PLAN 十分之好...只係佢地唔BY...

再加埋佢地既PLAN同指示真係劣!...完全聽唔明..

問題根本就唔係我地身上..不過算啦...

唔係你既始終都唔係你既...

反正第一拎機票唔包食宿要黎托咩=="

星期日本來一心打算唔想係屋企HEA...

就跟左屋企人出去以為有野行啦..

結果睇我想睇既手機5分鐘都冇..

已經比人轟炸左差唔多10個唔買既理由--"

我以後都唔會再買NOKIA架啦... 用左5年...跌左無數次..都係得個外表壞...

入面樣樣都安好--都唔知幾時先肯換比我...

之後行左3個鐘既超市==" 很想死...你話買左好多野都算啦...

又唔係..個度既野我15分鐘就買得完--

真係悶到激死左...

去完千色,再去新元朗中心..

食飯就去左元朗廣場 美心==真係超級元朗一日遊...悶到喊..

以後都唔會再跟佢地出去啦--"

今日..都係冇咩特別啦...

中文FT...好易岩左好多野...但好有可能最後都係FAIL--

不過....起碼而家有動力番學先啦...

想見多你一陣炸MA -3- 都唔係好衰姐 >.< 

=] 我打左幾多字呀==得閒得濟...唔好話我聽聽日ICT要默書=="

因為我都係打日記先記番起今日冇默...書都冇拎番黎....

 今個星期都算係幾忙下...

一連測左M 同 M2... 兩份都應該pass...算係幾開心..

只係楊振雄話測到area..但最後測埋volume..搞到個part衰左...

M 係岩D唔岩D啦...同D題目D英文唔知點理解...

chem 補左兩日課...都OK明既...

chin 作文竟然最高分... 又係奇蹟...

ICT開始又要做個D無聊present...唉...

雖然星期一有假...但又有36題M2, 200幾題PHY CHEM MC...

忙死...

不過今個星期其實真係過得幾好...

特別係琴日... 真係過得好開心...  多謝你=]

我問個個問題只係因為我真係唔知你既立場...

我一直都唔係等唔切,而係怕永遠都等唔到...

但係琴日我終於聽到你點解咁答.. 

聽見既算係承諾吧...

 你說的一切我都相信...只是你在此之前沒有說過,我才盲猜而已...

我當然願意等...

 今個星期其實都係苦悶既番學日子...

3月就係咁...冇假期冇希望冇精神...

LS Test  一定死緊咁濟...都唔知自己寫左D咩...

PE 玩欖球,冇壘球咁好玩lor.... 

又冇得推倒人...D人比人tag完跑多半場先傳比人=="

d堂又係愈上愈悶... 番到屋企唔預做野..係係學校見到人做咩又跟住做...

今日余思行又係講個d咩學習問題....

立即勾起曬f.3 個d回憶... 立即感受番當年既仇恨...

算啦..我好相信個時發生既事會跟我一世....

同上個星期發生既一樣...實在係太深刻...

我覺得我係一個月度經歷左一個人可能要好多年先經歷既事..

但好快又回復平靜...下一步我應該點做?

仲可以做d咩?雖然而家都算幾ok既..

但真係只可以永遠保持住咁?

不過唔緊要既...我當然可以等..

只怕等既個一日永遠都唔會黎...

但...都未開始就諗結局又真係好悲劇既...

又係順其自然?

arrr...LEE 期好鐘意聽Avril...

6-3-2011

基本上兩日都係閉關係屋企...

琴日去左紅橋飲茶..見到HANS...但佢見唔到我..

好似兩人都補唔番之前一個星期既眼訓...

聽歌聽到喊...

有好多歌都好想share==" 但再係咁出應該都冇人會理我...

不過都係啦..睇得明咪有意思lor--唔明本身D歌都好好聽...

You say what you thought of me 
Ohhhohhohoh 
And you take something out of me 
So predictable 
Why do I have to see this through? 
Why do I have to take this? 
Isn’t there something I can do 
To make myself finally say this

No 
You’ve taken this too far 
Exposing who you are 
For all to see, 
You’re not the one that you pretend to be

You start with apologies 
Ohhhohhohoh 
Then take another shot at me 
So pretendable 
Why do I have to see this through?
Why do I have to take this?
Isn’t there something I can do 
To make myself finally say this

No 
You’ve taken this too far 
Exposing who you are 
For all to see, 
You’re not the one that you pretend this 
No 
You’ve taken this too far 
Exposing who you are 
For all to see, 
You’re not the one that you pretend to be

No 
You’ve taken this too far 
Exposing who you are 
For all to see, 
You’re not the one that you pretend this 
No 
You’ve taken this too far 
Exposing who you are 
For all to see, 
You’re not the one that you pretend to be

 今日放左學之後...唔知點解咁無聊留左係禮堂...

幫彭子軒搬鼓同睇佢地rehearsal.. 

雖然都真係幾好睇...

余思行bass真係好勁..

學校D鼓都真係好爛..一路打一路走...=="

搞到我好想打番鼓呀..一直都想打..但可惜屋企冇可能會有...

唯有睇下遲D可唔可以痴住彭子軒啦...

其實琴日發生左一件好大既事下...

我真係好難當到冇事...特別睇番, i am the only one who is suffering..

有點不滿...

至於成件事...又用一首歌黎表達... 基本上我未見過有一首歌既歌詞可以將成件事表達出黎--

至於如果睇唔明..就自重啦...

Step one, you say, "we need to talk"
He walks, you say, "sit down, it's just a talk"
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
You begin to wonder why you came
一開始 你說我們需要談談
他走來 你說坐吧 只是聊聊
他禮貌性回你一笑
而你從頭到尾委婉的看著他
你一直盯著右邊的窗戶瞧
你一直盯著右邊的窗戶瞧
當你們逐漸離道而行
在恐懼與責備之間
你開始想知道你為何而來

(Chorus)
Where did I go wrong?
I lost a friend somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I know how to save a life
到底哪裡弄錯了?
我在苦澀中逐漸失去你
假如我知道如何挽回 
我會陪你一整夜

Let him know that you know best
Cuz after all, you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
Things you told him all along
Pray to God he hears you
And pray to God he hears you
讓他知道你最懂他
因為畢竟 你的確是最懂他的
試著遺忘他的辯解
放下所有的錯誤
那些曾提醒過他的事
祈禱，上帝祂會聽見
然後祈禱，上帝祂會聽見

(Chorus)
And where did I go wrong?
I lost a friend somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I know how to save a life
到底哪裡弄錯了?
我在苦澀中逐漸失去你
假如我知道如何挽回 
我會陪你一整夜

As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things:
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came
當他聲音開始變大，漸漸生氣了
你應該輕聲，並讓他再次選擇
堅持著原則直到你走到盡頭
或者違背自己所相信承諾的
他將會從那兩者間做選擇
他或許會承認
或者他會說他就是變了
而你將又會想知道，你是為了什麼還在這裡

(Chorus)
Where did I go wrong?
I lost a friend somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I know how to save a life
到底哪裡弄錯了?
我在苦澀中逐漸失去你
假如我知道如何挽回 
我會陪你一整夜

(Chorus)
Where did I go wrong?
I lost a friend somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I know how to save a life
How to save a life 
How to save a life
到底哪裡弄錯了?
我在苦澀中逐漸失去你
假如我知道如何挽回 
我會陪你一整夜
如何才能挽回
如何才能挽回

 ----------------------------in other words

Standing alone with no direction
離去後我在地鐵月台上站著
How did I fall so far behind?
心想為何自己的感覺那麼難受..

Why Am I searching for perfection?
為何我還要尋求一種完美的愛情,希望對你做的每一件事都是完美
Knowing it`s something I won`t find
我根本知道...這是沒有可能的... 現在發生的我也知道必然會發生

In my fear and flaws
在我對自己的恐懼與缺陷之中
I let myself down again
結果最後還是如我所料,卻又不想發生的...
All because
全因

I run
我希望逃避...
Till the silence splits me open
對住你我無話可說的感覺令我很辛苦...
I run
Till it puts me underground
直到我離去為止
Till I have no breath
直到我奄奄一息
And no roads left but one
但心裡也知道..對你來說,只剩下這唯一的路

When did I lose my sense of purpose?
我在那時失去了自己應有的感覺...什至不知道自己在做什麼...
Can I regain what`s lost inside?
我真係能把傷痛掩蓋,當作沒事發生嗎?
Why do I feel like I deserve this?
為何我覺得我活該?明知結局如此卻要這樣做...
Why does my pain look like my pride?
那種痛苦使我的餘下值得快樂的事通通掩蓋了..

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I run
Till it puts me underground
But there`s no regret
但我沒有後悔,或是沒法後悔...
And no roads left to run
這也許是唯一的出路...只是對我來說...太難承受