Today, when I read the blog of my little student, she wrote about me. I feel so happy that she really care about my health.

Actually, my health is going down. I don't know what is happening, maybe I didn't have enough time for rest.

Tonight, when my heart feel paint again, I know that is my wrong, I didn't let my body take rest, work all the day.

Heart: John, I think you need to take rest...

Me: I see, but...

Heart: Please thinking about me...

Me: Yes, I did, I do, and I will do...

Heart: you must know that when I paint you also will effected by the paintful...

Me: Of course... 

Heart: I beg you John, please take care of yourself and me.

John: Ok... ok...later la...

Maybe because today my health is not to well, so it effected to my feeling, so down...

I really worry about my beloved student, I afraid that ... what can I do but pray...

I can understand the hard feeling, I can feel it, but I cannot do anything to share it...

I don't know why my tear is running out... Stupid guy... 

近來接觸一些輔導個案，面對同樣一個問題就是對象對生命的輕視．我同情他們的遭遇，了解他們的困難，也明白他們的心情，可是我不能接受他們的想法．結束生命是否能夠解決問題？為什麼連基督徒都會如此軟弱？

我自己之前都曾經面對這個問題，也曾經有同樣的念頭，但因為自己的身份和信念我才能站立得住．如何去幫助其他人，這真是一個難題．對非基督徒，可能是較為容易，但對基督徒而言，當他們來到這地步，就如走頭無路．他們心中的上帝已不佔重要的位置了．

生命是何等的寶貴，每當我心病發作時，我都很焦急，不是因為怕死，而是因知自己還有太多事未做．每當好辛苦的時候，我都要爭取每一口氣，因為自己仍未能夠忠於主所託付．我同樣要面對痛苦，同樣要受抑鬱的威脅，同樣要面對自己的軟弱，但我同時依靠那常加給我力量的上帝去力戰生命，要為主打美好的仗．

生命是有價的，因為是用主的生命來代贖、來換取的．