其實..我真係好唔捨得澳門..真係好唔捨得...

一直扮堅強ge我就黎撐唔住啦..其實呢排發生太多事啦..

我真係撐唔住啦...係七月ge時候..我公公去左...係八月ge時候..

我發現左爺爺有左末期癌症...我又要去台灣..又要失戀..

契哥又唔要我啦...我真係好想喊..好想有人借個膊頭比我...

但係有ma?!有人真正咁關心過我需要ma?!我需要喊..我需要發洩...!!

我真係好唔開心呀!!!我並唔係咁堅強嫁咋..我都有軟弱ge時候...

表面上ge我..真係好似冇事咁呀..其實真係想有人關心我..

最少..問我有冇事..借下個膊頭比我都好呀...我真係需要喊...

或者我喊完會舒服d..我真係好想喊..我需要安慰..我需要人愛錫..

我需要ge可唔可以比我呀?!仲有五日咋..比我感受下咩叫做溫暖呀!!!

有時我真係覺得我自己係一個好失敗ge基督徒...我連傳福音比我阿爺..

我都做唔到呀...我又成日唔返教會..d壞習慣又改唔到wor...我係d咩?!

我係d咩呀?!我唔想後悔..但係偏偏又要自己要令到自己後悔...

我唔係唔信神唔會聽禱告...我係唔信自己...我覺得我自己真係太失敗啦..

失敗得連我自己都覺得失敗呀!!我算得上係d咩呀?!我係d咩呀?!

有時真係唔想生存...點解要人要面對咁多野?!點解要承受咁多野...

點解唔比我抖下..要一連串咁發生咁多事..我知神要磨練我..要我成長..

但係點解自己就係唔成長呢?!點解我要鑽牛角尖..以前哥個毛英去左邊呀?!

哥個積極..開朗ge毛英去左邊呀?!返黎啦...哥個毛英..!!

今日..比我一個阿哥hurt得好應..佢講左一d我認為...好難聽ge說話..

真係好唔開心嫁..不過anyway...你對我點都好...我都當左你係我阿哥..

一個我好錫ge契哥..由心度錫哥種..你中意點都好..只要你覺得..

你唔會後悔就ok了..你唸緊咩..你想點我阻止唔到你..放心..

我唔會嬲你..唔會怪你..你過得ok就好了..第時返黎我真係好想..

你會開開心心咁同我見下面..飲下野我就會好開心嫁啦...^^

夜晚同左戲劇miss飲野..傾左好耐呀我地..希望佢之後過得開開心心啦..

而我..哈哈..就走了..開始覺得冇話捨唔捨得啦..都定左了..

點都要去讀書嫁..眼光放遠d啦..毛英..或者我會中意哥邊ge生活呢..

或者並唔係我想得ge咁糟呢..放遠d塊鏡..睇野都會唔同d...

而家塊鏡放得太埋啦..淨係見到自己..真係呀!!哈哈....

听日就要返大陸探爺爺..可能係最後一次啦..希望我有勇氣..

同佢傳福音啦..要加油..求神比力量我..!!毛英一定得...

下個星期好多野攪..好多人約tim..希望媽咪唔好嬲啦...^^

一個月黎一次ge親戚今日黎攪我事..今朝10點幾痛醒了..

食d藥好了...不過一訓就訓到4點幾..唉...又晒左半日了..

冇去送子洋同熱血機tim..唔知佢地而家點呢..?!突然間..

有d掛住佢地tim...唉..少左d生氣咁..我都"謝謝"地...

唔知我走左會點呢..?!有冇人會掛住我呢..?!我唸只有家人吧!!

唉..心情煩躁...都唔知做乜野..唉...."心情煩躁的毛英.."

夜晚同左幾個以前高一ge同學仲有史提芬妮去食飯...

食完飯去食糖水.. 食完唸住返屋企啦..覺得返到去好悶...

打左陣機先返去..都係好悶..返到黎等到而家先有得用電腦..

果然真係好悶...因為我要等我個好細佬用完我先有得用...

我個好細佬真係呀..!!唉...有d肚餓tim..嗚..冇熱血陪我食宵夜..

話說今日3點9約左反校盟ge朋友仔...我驚遲到之下..

我飛的去..點知..3點10去到ge時候..我發現竟然係我最早到lo..

激死我..!!最遲哥3個人4點7先到..唉..晒的士錢..!!

then我地就去左寰宇天下到"look鈴"...第一次玩..真係好差勁..

總分得28分..真係低分..= =" 不過好好玩..佢地好攪笑..!!

then去"Apple House"度"hei"左陣就出發去大陸了...

食完野後..去左玩"卡仔"...又係第一次玩..真係好爽...有機會再玩過!!

不過都幾貴下..40蚊10分中..唉..又係我最低分..第尾..點解?!

有人想過我..點知佢撞左..哈哈..哥個一定唔係俊俊囉...

有隻河馬又想過我..點知又撞左..我又撞埋..後面ge低b肥雞..

又撞埋黎..三個撞埋左一齊...= ='' 哈哈...好好玩呀!!!

有個彎超正..!!狂轉..飄移..唔撞哥時..真係好爽..可惜有一次撞左..

好痛 .= _=.  ...呀!!好想玩多次呀..!!有冇人陪我呢....?!

返到屋企已經好飽..食左少少餸比一比面老媽子....!!

好累呀...!! 子洋同熱血听日走..我咁懶訓..一定送唔到佢地..

take care啦你地..半年後再見..掰掰...^^

時間過得真係快...又就快要同大家講掰掰...

我今日見返2個老朋友..棍棍同朱朱...

兩個都大個女啦..朱小姐仲有埋車tim..勁!!!

而我..岩岩先再起步..去台南讀書..幾時我先出黎做野..?

幾時我先有車呢...?!真係唔知...4年後吧!!

今日有d心軟..想搵返佢..同返佢一齊..不過..我同自己講..

如果係我ge點都會係..由佢啦..咁樣..可能對大家都好d..

淨返十日咋...就要離開一個從小居住ge地方...過大學生活..

好似有好多人都未見咁..好想見下佢地..無奈ge係.."佢地唔得閒"

不過算啦..新年返黎先搵啦..嗚嗚...  .>_<.

唔知係咪就m到ge原因..我個人好情緒..好想發脾氣..!!

岩岩班"柚"又話3點去飲早茶..點知又話唔去...真係嬲!!

成日都係咁...約實左突然又話唔得..!!真係好嬲囉...!!!

想打暈佢地...!!!妖...!!唔得...想訓tim...去訓...!!

本來唸住睇女排唔去打波..點知睇睇下都冇癮...

中國輸了..then沖完涼走左去搵班同學仔打波...

我後悔沖左涼先出去..又一身汗..不過真係好爽...

好耐都冇試過咁爽..今晚11點幾打到2點幾..打半場..

打打下打全場..真係累透了..又係力的表現..今晚我打得唔錯..

入左好多波..個感覺真係好爽..不過而家沖完涼感覺仲爽...

好很攰呀..!!唔得...係我去台灣之前..真係想打多場..真係好爽..!!!

而家又要攪選科d野..唔攪掂都咪洗旨意訓...8點半要起身send上去..

唉..快d攪掂快d訓...好攰...!!!

又幾日冇打過日記啦..因為有d野要面對一下..

要調整下自己先..唔知點解..呢排d心情同情緒好波動...

好容易想發脾四...唉..我終於明白哥時甘仔ge心情啦...!!

仲有17日就要走啦..台南又近左啦...d野都攪得七七八八..

呢排好想約多d我d朋友出黎..不過無奈ge係..大家都約唔岩時間..

我d朋友仔呢排又好似特別忙咁..人地岩岩xx..好需要朋友嫁ma..

我想變返以前哥個毛英呀!!中意喊就喊..笑就笑..有咩唔開心..

打下波or講晒出黎就發洩晒..人點解要學識堅強姐?!

我反而唔中意堅強ge毛英..唔通喊真係代表唔堅強咩?!

你唔中意喊ge毛英..成日要我堅強d..我迎合你..每一次想喊..

我都忍住了..而家..想喊都喊唔出啦..我真係好想一個人好朋友..

可以借個膊頭比我痛痛快快咁喊返一場..我覺得我再屈住屈住..

遲早有一日..我會爆發..點爆我自己都唔知..唔想去左台灣先爆..

會好慘..!!到時我有朋友ma?! 會有人開解我ma?!唉...!!我唸緊咩呀?

我發覺我呢排好鑽牛角尖..唸d咩都好偏激咁.....!!

我d好朋友呀!!多d搵我啦好冇?!唔識安慰人ge朋友...

你地都約我出去玩下...等我開心下都好呀!!等你地呀!!

I am very happy that you said that things to me..

But I am sorry.. I must go to TW .. sorry..~

my dear my friend.. Go to England.. you must take care..

Miss me~~ok? I too...hahahaaa...

I have seen my two best friends' Xanger just now..

I find that I have missed many things in your life..

I want to tresure you before I come to TW..

I am so afraid that I will lost you who my best friends...

Can you find me more in that days which that I tresure?

I am not a sturdy girl.. I like crying..

Who can give me a pair of shoulder to let me cry?!

My friends?! Or who?! I am very unhappy on that period..

My grandfather was died.. My grandpa have Cancer..

And I have so many things trouble me.. My heart was full of trouble..

Who can comfort me?! Who can help me to come over?!

Only Jesus Chirst.. When I am very unhappy.. He will together with me..

He never leave me.. When I pray, my heart will go comfortable..

Not only me to face the trouble.. He with me together..

Thanks Jesus.. Thanks my god! I will be brave to face any trouble..

because of u..!! Thanksgiving!!

心情越黎越複雜.. 越黎越沉重.. 開心..傷心...百感交集..

倒數著23天...日子一日一日咁過去.. 離台灣讀書ge日子..

一日一日咁接近.. 我可以獨立到ma?! 重新開始我ge讀書生涯..

重新開始我ge新生活.. 半年後.. 澳門會變成點呢?! 你又會變成點呢?!

晚上同左我好朋友小欣去望廈小泉飲野.. 聚下舊咁...hehe...感覺真好...

16號好朋友昭兒要返英國了..好想送你機..可惜6點幾..太早..

你又唔想我送你..話太早... 唯有出年見啦..~^.^~ 比心機d讀書呀!!

阿哥..你幾時搵我呢?話搵話搵..你真係咁唔得閒應酬下我呢個妹..

知唔知人地有幾咁掛住你嫁?!就走啦.. 你真係咁忙咩?!想見你呀!= ="

ToXX.. I want to say.. I don't want to leave u.. but I must go..

I hope that you can happy all the day..!! God bless you!!