vitali, oh, vitali,

you are really not kidding!!!

your reply is your real thought!!!

i am so glad to hear and read about that!!!

and of course, i do!!! i really do!!!!

i thought you wouldnt reply to me,

i thought it is only my mind,

i thought all of them are illusions....

however, you come to tell me that all of them are true and real,

all of them are not only in my mind.....

i am really happy that i know what you are thinking of!

even though i am not sure the possibility of meeting together....

is it possible that all these things happen in the future?

no matter what the answer is,

i have to work harder,

i have to work harder than before!

in order to achieve my dream and goal,

in order to meet and see you in real life,

i have to work hard and try my best in my university life,

no matter how hard it is,

as i know you will always support me!

"How far should a person go in the name of love?"

can everyone find his/her own love in the end?

i think the one who is your true lover must be the one you cant live without him/her...

however, can i find this man in the future?

or i can find him in the future, but he loves the other girl?

i think it is quite complicated sometimes,

all of the novels have a beautiful happy ending,

but is it true for the reality?

i dont think so.

its only the imagination of the authors,

the authors wrote these happy endings is only for their incomes,

yes, i am so young to talk about this,

i should be concentrated on my work,

money, academic, job are the most important things that i should keep thinking of...

especially in this society.

being realistic and materialistic can protect myself,

even though i am really tired of all these things

"It is important to remember that joy can always follow despair.

Joy is sometimes only an illusion."

前晚在明珠台睇左一套戲叫''premonition''

睇完個結局之後, 令到我SAD左成晚....

套戲係講個老婆無意之間可以穿越現在同未來,

得知老公會遇到車禍而死....

然後佢就盡一切能力希望可以改寫未來....

然而, 佢不能改寫命運,

佢老公最後都死左...

點解要俾佢希望, 然後又要俾佢失望??

唔通人真係不能勝天,

人只係一些不知明力量既一枚棋子?

人只係按住佢本身注定既命運去做所有野?

咁我係唔係唔洗擔心我既將來?

因為我本身既命運已定?

 擔心又點, 唔擔心又點,

個結局一早已經SET好左,

你想改變都改變唔到.

或者套戲另外既意思係:

即使不能改寫命運, 我地當中既心態卻可以變.

就算知道前面條路係咁崎嶇,

但我地應該感恩我地已經比其他人幸福好多,

就算知道自己個老公會死,

但上天卻賜左一個新生命俾自己,

那個新生命既降臨就係代表丈夫既離去,

自己應該慶幸新生命既降臨...

但我始終接受唔到故事既結局,

我對我地人類無法改寫自己命運感到失望.

咁我咁努力係為左D咩?

就係為左個唔完美既結局?

by the way,

i am really glad and really touched to hear about your answer, vitali,

even though i know you are kidding,

even though i know that goal is impossible to achieve,

even though i know that goal is only in my mind.....