Still got a cold,but feeling better....i listened to my boss advice ^^

Nearly the end of May...so quick...hvnt got much time left.

Babe starts to count down about hk trip again...he is realy excited bout it,but i don hv much feeling bout,well,i must admit..i do miss hk.

Start to get a bit pissed of with that HCF girl,as she thinks she can fuck me off anytime she wants...im only part-time,thats y i accept it.but doesnt mean im happy with it...

Thank god its not raining anymore.

After next week,holiday again...well,its same 2 me anyway.but babe decides he will go 2 work as he can earn extra money...Im happy with it.cos we do need money for so many things...

Ive been reading my sister's diary recently,feeling her life is so colourful and exciting...mine?simple.

Sometimes, simple is the best, the best is simple.

Went shopping yesterday...feeling so good.As Primark in Merry Hill has opened.cudn't wait 2 go there.

But its a but shit there...donno y,just not as good as the b'ham one..anyway,its great 2 hv a look around there..

Bought a new pair of shoes yesterday,on sale-10 quid....loving it so much.

Still feel a bit shit as the cold hasnt gone yet...but im feeling better now,apart from my throat.Still need 2 take pills.

Going 2 brum with Jon&Rob 2nite...wont drink too much..save money.

A but Scared of calling parents,cos i donno wat i should tell them. I think they wud be disappointed...sumthime i wish i wudnt study anymore,so mum doesnt need 2 save that hard 4 me..everytime wen i think bout that,my heart is in pain.

Babe said he will go 2 the bank and ask how much the bank will lend him...well.wait till he goes...it might be 10 years later.

he also said we can rent sumwhere first...mm...if he wud look 4 one.

Yup...better stop moaning.

Feeling shit,got a cold cos the rain....but doesnt mean i don need 2 work.

Need to work 2day in takeaway...

my throat was killing me yesterday,but 2day,my nose starts....then i no,it wont go easily.

it makes my brain and eyes so cloudy....very dull.

Shit weather nearly everyday here....where is the sun?

it wont work unless babe has got a place to live legaly,thats the biggest problem..he said he will look for one,but i don think he will...

i wish i didnt no him that well....thats makes me getting crazy all the time.

Thursday...had a party on bourne st,got absolutly pissed...

Friday,went out with Sandy and Mike cos of that was our 1st anniversary.didnt drink much..cos we were both feeling shit.

Saturday,got up at 9.cos we needed 2 go up Doncaster for Stuart's wedding(Babe's fd).Drink again..

Sunday,com bak..went to the pub in the afternoon cos the men needed to watch football....drink again..

5:oopm,finally arrive home.

2day...had a chat with Fian..need to ask so many things..suddenly feel myself so stupid.

700pound...o god.where can i get it from?

Shouldnt rely on anybody,but really got no way to find the information...

im so annoyed....cant find any support from people.even him...

Thank you very much indeed, Fian!

Got on the internet 2 search sum stuff...

had a call with Iris, feel great..

People who should care,but they don.

People who do not need 2 particular care,but they do.

Called my sister over 20 times,no answer...

Told babe to call for requirements, he said "i don wana call,u call".

This does not only relates me..but

Only me can help myself.

wana cry.

Maybe.....just leave it..y should i bother?