又踏入咗令人心情輕鬆愉快既八月, (因為又可以去旅行lu.^^)
聽晚我就要飛lu,
今次係去三藩市,(一如既往,呢次已經係第5次啦^^)
首先係我同家姐去咗果邊先,
然之後果邊既Auntie同Uncle帶我哋去Florida(又稱Olando),
佛羅里達州有一個好大既迪迪尼,
有成個香港島咁大呀!
好興奮呀!>.<
之後番番三藩市,
媽咪+Daddy同姨姨會過嚟,
之後一齊去加拿大既Banff,
真係好期待呀!

Um...都唔知再有咩野講lu,
下次再打過啦,
Byebye! Wish all of you have a nice day!!!

Finished! All finished!
Exams, TSA, all finished!
It's quite lucky for all those things finished.
Maybe that can clam myself down...

Three exam paper were received.
Result?
No good at all.
I just want to ask why.
Why every time,
when the others' result go bad,
my result go good.
But when the others' result go good,
my result go bad.
The feel of that is really bad.
When you saw the one who was worse than you in the past,
but almost all the result of the subjects of you was worse than that one.
When you were set down in your seat and all of your friends were talking behind you and talked about their super good result,
like, 139/140, 138/140, 136/140, etc.
but your result is worse than ALL OF THEM.
Who understand that feeling?
NO ONE.

You ask me why I cry?
You don't understand.
You said I don't understand that all of you understand me.
I do. I do understand that you might understand me.
But you didn't show it to me.
You know?
What I want to have and receive is actions, is listeners for me,
not the sentences that everyone say to me when I cry.
I listened to all of these sentences a thousand times already.
I understand. But I just can't do it.
You asked me not to cry.
I wanted to. But I can't.
You said you love to have an argue with me.
But I don't. I hate having an argue with you.
Don't always say you guys are understanding me
because you are not.
How do I know that you guys are not understanding me?
I can see it. I can hear it. I can feel it.
You guys have the thing I want the most.
That is very and 100% normal for all of you.
But for me, it's not.
Maybe is because I am not good enough.
Best friend, a true best friend, I best friend that him or her look you as his or her best friend too. NOT JUST FRIENDS.
This is what I want the most.
Don't tell me I already have or you don't have it.

I don't have much time left,
21 days with all of you.
include holiday already.
I don't want these days to be end ever.
But I can't stop the time.
Time will still go on,
it won't wait for me and us.
Miss all those things.
-4 of you: Wingki, Rachel, Goby, Yewie
-2 teachers: Miss Tang, Miss Tsui
-our school
-our class
If I can, I would like to stop the time and very leave all of you.
I don't want to lose my friends although all of you already have your own best friend.
Although when we go into pairs, the one left will sure be me expect in PE lesson...
Although when we go into secondary school, no one will being with me anymore in Co-ed...
Although I am not good enough...

Anyway, I am just not in a good mood.
Feeling bad, very very bad.
Even can't use a word to describe my feeling.
No one can imagine how bad my result is.
Chinese: 64/80 (The worst result I have ever have)
English: 135/140 (The worst result among all of my friends)
Maths: not yet given the paper to us
G.S.: 100/100 (The only paper I am feeling quite good...)

Over all, I can't finish my dream at all.
All of the hard-work in the past has been waste.
Just because did bad at last.
......
I don't know what to say...
Anyway, just 2 words:
SAD & DISAPPOINTED!
All wasted.

最近d日子都過得唔錯,(除咗有一兩之默書成績唔太好之外...)
不過最近既校園生活好似有d唔同,
起起跌跌咁,
一時開心到不得了,
一時心情就跌到落谷底。
不過整體嚟講,
開心既時間都多d。
唔知係唔係同班男仔一齊,(唔係,應該係話比佢哋跟住至係.)
多咗話題,
同班friend講既野都多咗,
範圍闊咗。

唔知點解,
好珍惜同班friend一齊既時間,
無論係一齊傾計,
一還是係比佢哋打,(當然係唔會整傷我果隻"打" haha~~)
都一樣咁珍惜。

今日原本想辭職,
辭咗圖書館領袖生個位。
我好想花多d時間陪d friend傾吓計,
好好咁珍惜呢一段只係剩番3個幾月既友誼。
但係竟然比人"ban"咗...
d人去見工失敗我就聽過,
辭職都失敗就真係第一次聽...
仲要係發生在自己既身上...
真係唸起都一頭煙~~~
已經講曬籍口,
但係都係失敗而回...
真係唔知點搞...
比余老師激死!!!

就嚟考試啦,
好緊張。
唔係話我驕傲,
但係自己真係成日都係到唸:
如果我今次又考唔到第一咁點?
如果我今次又考到咁差咁點?
我同自己講:
我唔可以再輸, 一次都唔可以!
Jessica Lau never lose!!!!
但係成日比人話:
講同做係兩回事! 得把口冇用, 要做出嚟先得ga~
但係呢一d說話似乎已經變咗做我成日都講既野。
考試臨近,
我一定會加緊溫習,
一定要做到我所講既野:
JESSICA LAU NEVER LOSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
希陶一定要加油~~~~~

要溫書啦,
今次講到呢度,
bye