昨晚已覺得身體有點兒不妥當,喉嚨不適、流x水;加上昨晚入不了睡,所以今天早上很辛苦,現在有點頭疼和流x水,還很想睡,主啊,救命!今天我和黃香還要負責hold聚會,真的很需要神的恩惠和慈愛。

出埃及記看到十四章了,我還要努力,希望看得越多聖經越好!

外面下著滂沱大雨,我的心情本和天氣一樣陰陰沉沉的,提不起勁來。加上看了一些自己不應看的東西,想起了不該再回首的事情,心再一次向下沉。但感謝主讓我想起甜美日程,我跟著祈禱了,求主保守我的心懷意念。仇敵遍地遊行,尋找可吞吃的人,我差點兒成了它的獵物,幸好主救了我!

剛聽了幾章聖經,感覺不錯,希望我的讀經計劃能順利推行!

Loneliness is like a cunning guy

secretly creeping into my life.

Want to get rid of him, yet can't resist his temptation.

Lord, please redeem me for I know you are my greatest lover.

No one should drift me away from Your river of love!

假期開始了,我得好好計劃一下如何運用時間。我是否一個沒有組織的人呢?還不算吧,但總覺得暑假的時間運用得不够好。今天和浸大的b/s討論送舊營,感謝主我們總算有點兒頭緒。我們打算去澳門三日兩夜,應該會住聚地,船票由koey來訂購,其他詳情還未細談,但這個宿營總算有了"初"形。

今天去了打羽毛球,很好玩啊,還"免費"玩多了半個小時,嘻嘻......

後來我和姊妹去了太古城,又大出血了,希望我買的東西有用,不然就心痛死了。今天接多了一份補習,我知該份補習很難,但我需要一筆錢......

*讀了出埃及記1-3章,很開心!

Thank Lord for preparing everything for me. I was happy that I had an interview two days after my returning to HK. The school is in Mongkok, a Band 3 school. Since I had been too tired, I had not prepared well. When the interviewer asked me about my knowledge of the school, I suddenly become mute. I just made a wild guess. He told me about the school later on. Though the questions he asked were somehow irrelevant I think, some were valuable for my self-reflection. For example, "Are you a strong person?" "Which banding of school do you prefer to teach in?" These questions made are good sources of self-reflection. Yes, I have to understand well about myself. I am not unqualified, but i have to fit in a suitable school. Schools are choosing me. Yet, I am also choosing the schools. I am wondering if I am a strong person. Surely I am not physically strong. However, I won't say I am psychologically weak.

I am strong because of God. His love is my greatest strength. Because of Him, I am afriad of nothing for He has done the greatest thing! My strength also comes from my enthusiasm in teaching and my love for the kids. I am not sure whether these qualities are enough for me to endure all the hardships in a Band 3 school. Lord, I don't know which school I will go. Please path the way for me!

The interviewer gave me a good lesson. He asked me what I had learnt from other interviews, which i had not thought about before. Right, every interview is a lesson. I don't go for nothing but to prepare for my following interviews. I told him that I learnt that teachers had to be in charge of many things, not only academic stuffs but also extra curricular activities. In case I enter a Band 3 school, what I have to do is not to raise their academic result but to motivate them to learn. This is also what I want. I might have to use Cantonese to teach. This is acceptable to me. He also said interviews are a subjective thing. It's hard to say what standard I have to reach in order to be admitted. That's right.

From this interview, I learnt that I should have better understanding of myself. I have to learn from interviews. I am not sure if I can succeed this time. Wait until next week. Anyway, it's a fruitful lesson to me.

今次的西安之旅滿載了主的恩典,真的很難忘!我的心情之好難以言喻!很高興的是團友們友善,活動有意義。當中最深刻的是義教活動。我和moses一起教了四班學生(想不到要教這麼多班),他們分別是小六、初一、高一和高二。我第一次教高年班,但感恩的是我仍能應付得來。有點令我很驚訝,那就是每班學生的數目--每班大約有七八十人,我第一次聽到這消息時,真是大吃一驚,但最終還是硬著頭皮上陣。我和moses合作無間,他很認真教學,這點是我所欣賞的。學生們很乖和聽話,還懂得聽英語,他們的語文程度真的比我想像中高得多。正如我在結業禮時所講,我們組得到了很多第一次--第一次走上講台,感受到七八十對熱切期待的眼光投在自己身上,我彷彿成了真正的老師,成了學生們敬仰的對象。有一個學生送了兩本筆記本給我們,更刻的是有另一個女同學送了一個自己做的心心和一封信,很是感動呢!我要再次強調,那裡的學生真的很很很可愛、單純,雖然我每班只教了一節課,但這足以令我捨不得他們。

說一點和團友相處的事吧。全團有三十個人,每組五個。eric是我們的組長,其餘有我、moses和他兩個情侶檔同學。我們每次行動都是全組一起的。我和我組裡的那個女同生同一間房間,唉......他男朋友常進來找她,我則顯得很尷尬,幸好有時moses也一齊來玩,那感覺會好些。我們組由於很多時候一起,我們相熟了不少。有一次在火車上,我們四個(組長較少和我們一起)談起天來,那對情侶對moses的感情事很感興趣,於是向他"逼供",結果不知怎的,我們每個都要講,我也講了,在moses的逼供下,他知道了我的事,我有點怕,因為不想別人知道,但結果也是講了,我的心情有點害怕,但後來也沒什麼了,我相信他會守秘密。我了解moses多了,發現他很可愛,是個大孩子,他的好奇令我感到他很可愛,哈哈哈......

我還認識了moses一個叫光仔的同學,他的樣子很像"少爺jim",所以大家都是這樣稱呼他的。他很斯文,但說起話來真的很惹笑。他和moses常"互串",有一次在參觀博物館的時候,由於太沉悶了,我叫光仔作導遊向我們講解文物的資料,於是他胡說八道起來。有一個時刻是這樣的:我們在看一些青銅的盛器,moses對他說:"光仔,這不是你的尿壺嗎?"光仔回應說:"那不是你的"朗口盅"嗎?"真的笑死我了。我和光仔挺談得來的,可能是因為他為人友善吧。還有另一個團友,我們叫他豪哥,他也很好笑,很有學問,是辯論會的,很會說話。

很開心今次有機會和同房談到基督教的事,我在最後一日還送了她三本小冊子。還有另一位團友,她出來工作兩年了,但現在她已放下工作,在bu讀master,我也和她說到信仰問題。盼望她倆有機會信主吧!

令我印象最深的活動是在城牆上踏自行車,很好玩!還有參觀兵馬俑和博物館,真的大開眼界!你看到我寫了這麼少關於活動的花絮,可見這次旅遊令我最開心的不是活動,而是人。

如我在結業禮上所說,這次義教活動很有意義,當中的一切將會成為我畢生難忘的回憶。