The weather is so strange, sunny for a while then raining, keep changing....... but still very cold . Going to pick up  'Dolu'  torrowm,  we planned to go at 6 in the morning, but the breeder said she going to shopping and we have to arrive after 1pm. So, we changed our plane and leaving at 8am.  It is a very long journy, I have been drving for a year, but never drive such long way. I am so worry, can I do it or not? I don't know, However, i have no choice, am I? I have to do all the things myself when he is not here, Can i say this is a good thing? Because i have no one to reply on, and i can grow up, become more strong? I hope he will worry about me, as much as  i always worry about him. 

One last thing, torrowm is Jam's brithday. We have to come back at 7pm and going out again for dinner with her. Oh, God. Why all the things come together this year always? I miss him very very very much