I feel so depress about my life, the problem from my family and the pressure about exam makes me feel so dowm. Because all of these reminds me the happy days we have had together. I don't want to have any change, i just want the life we used to have back................... but, i know that is imposible, so i feel that i have no hopes anymore. However, at least i want him to be with me when i feel sad. Again, i know that's not going to happend............. I start to question the relationship between us, how long can we keep this relationship if we keep separating? Can we be together again before I wheoverwhelm by lonelyless , then start another relationship with someone else? 

I can understnad, it is impossible for him to come back in this country again, but i hope he can undrstand that what i need in a relationship is to have someone who loves me and can be always around me when i need him............