I still can't believe it

Today is the first day of my summer vacation

there is only two days left until going back to hk

when i woke up in the morning today

i thought that it is the friday of a three day weekend or something

haha

however, the weather in us is not good at all

it's all cold for the whole day

no sunlight at all

it's kind of depressing for me

because i don't like to go out to anywhere when it is cloudy

i watched drama and helped my mum to make food today

that's all i did

Tomorrow is the last day of school

Actually, my feeling right now is kind of complex

I am happy that school ends so fast

i didn't expect that it should be tomorrow

however, i am also kind of scared because that i am going back to hk tomorrow

i don't know what will happen in hk

there are two possibilities

one is that i am going to be super busy because all of my good friends are willing to go out and play with me (including u who is reading it right now)

the other is that i am going to rot at hoome

because none of u guys are willing to play with me

or even bother to care about this not important person

u might think that i am very 做作

i can tell u right now that i am not at all

it's my worry over the few months

for sure that i am willing to see all of ur faces and meet everyone

however, are u thinking this way too??

i don't know

OMG!!

I just can't believe it

I am very thankful to everything that i have right now

I am so thankful for all the specailities i have and my advantages on things as well

I just can't believe that i can be this lucky

how better can i be?

What else do i need??

I have a very good grade on all the subjects with no exceptions

All of them are very high As

What else do i neeed??

I am no longer lonely

I have a lot of friends and 2 best friends

we share happiness and sadness and joke around

I have special talents that other don't have

I also have been in different countries and learned a lot of different things in different period of time

In primary school, I was the star of the school

All the teachers liked me

In plkclscms, i like all of my classmatesw

i can tell that we share a lot of similarities and we are all the same

i enjoy every moment in school and after-school as well

In US, i got to know all the cool people

They helped me and enforced me to adopt to their culture

Now, i am suitable to both HK and US

What else should i beg for??

Maybe i am not as tall or pretty as u, i am very satisfied

I love my life and everything i have

Moreover, I can come back to HK in 5 days

OMG!! I am so excited right now and i don't know what to do

HK is my motivation to keep working hard since 8th grade or the freshman summer

However, what motivation do i have left after going back to HK??

After that, i will be a human without soul because i have no motivation left to keep me moving

I have to find something to be my motivation for the rest of my life

I feel so bad right now

Next Tuesday is the first day of the final exam

i didn't even start studying right now

I don't feel like studying at all

oh well, i tried so hard last week

i was doing my hw all the time

being hard-working can't last that long

oh well,

i have a very good maths grade

I just finished watching 老婆大人II

I was crying while watching the last 20 minutes of the last episode

it was so touching

it's so unbelievable that two people who used to not love each other actually cared each other that much

how are they supposed to live through it if they lost each other

i know that death is one of the experience in life

however, i don't think that i am ready for any one of them

once u knew someone or lived with someone for a period of time, there's no way to ease that memory from ur brain

it will just stay there forever

therefore, how can u not be sad when someone leaves u

today, i also understood myself more and more

i found out that it's very hard for me to keep a secret from one of my best friends

if there's anything special happens to me today, i would probably tell one of my best friends about it

however, i have to keep a secret away from them

i felt so bad and guilty and i am eager to tell them about it