this diary is different from the one before

this one is written in america

that's right, i am back to america again

in the airport today, four of my best friends came and saw me off

thank you very much, cherry, melody, fishball, polar bear

i miss all of u guys a lot already

in the airport, i just can't stop crying since i was thinking i won't be able to see ur face anymore

someone may say we can use the webcam and see each other

but then the feeling is all different

it's not the same anymore

i want to be with u guys and u

but then i just don't have a choice

on the airplane, i was bored so that i listened to the songs melody sent me

and reread the messages again

i started crying again

this time is much more touching

because all that's left is ur messages and this song 明天的我和你

the last message, the most heart-breaking one

yes, it's a happy ending

but it's an ending, don't forget

is there any future??

why is it an ending? not a continue??

唉.....

only 5 days left

i don't feel like it at all

time flies and i don't have much time left

if i didn't go to US, i would have more chances

i would have something that i have lost because i went

people change if u don't see them for a long time

relationship changes at the same time

i have heard something that is extremely surprising this week

i was surprised and am glad because of it

however, it doesn't matter what do i think about it

because it's not only about me

it's about if that something is told by the original person or not

everyone says that it's impossible and doesn't matter

but i do think that it matters

at least i can be sure that i am experienced it

and we are once like that even though it doesn't least

why don't u tell me?

why don't u just have some confidence and tell me it?

oh well....

i am already too tired to think about anything

i am exhausted because i went out for the whole day

i slept 4 hours yesterday and i woke up at 8 in the morning today

i went out and visited for the whole day until 10:15pm

i don't have much energy to care about anything

Seven more days

seven more days before i leave

seven more days before i say goodbye to u all

life is life

there's no way that i will stay in hk forever

i don't want to stay here forever either

the school life is way too strict

i want freedom

at the meanwhile, i want friends too

in order to have freedom, i gave up my friends

i gave up our friendship and our happiness

however, i got my freedom

why can't both of them exist

why do i have to give up one of them

because of freedom, i gave up not only the friendship, but something beyond it

this is life, this is the reality

u want something, sure, leave something behind

i left that behind along with my friends and happiness to pay for my freedom

never forget me please

time can really change people

three years later when i come back, i want to see u all again

i know that there must be changes and i hope that we are still good friends

u guys are my friends forever

i hope that once a while, u will remember that u once have a friend in another place

waiting for ur email, ur phone call

she's waiting for u guys

Today is the last day that we can see each other or just play crazily

yesterday, i just had so much fun with them

we skiied until our legs couldn't afford it anymore

it was so fun to skii with ur good friends

fun to talk and tease on the ice

thx to the minn boy, he said to me, "when will u fall?? I really want to see it."

after not even 1 min, i fell so badly

even my hair caught so ice

haha... it's fun though

after skiing, we went to eat subway together next to the sea

it just feels so comfortable and so relaxing

we talked a lot too

well.... after all, it's time to say goodbye

ngkashek and aukaiman are leaving today

well, i don't have a really specific or strong feeling right now

i know that i will miss them later

life is just like this

life is full of happinesses and hopes

after all, it's time for departing, for saying goodbye

however, i believe that i will keep a close contact with this 4 people since they are my best friends in primary school

i will work my hardeset until going back to hk 3 years later after i graduate high school

i will carry a relaxing and happy self to Australia with them

time flies, i believe

friends, let's keep contact forever until i come back to hk again in 3 years

I never thought that we four can have so much fun

Back in the school, we weren't that close

After graduating and becoming more mature, everyone changes

Our relationship becomes better than ever

We are four different people

we have four totally different characteristics

But we can get along very well

i miss them for sure

Three years ago, I thought that i can give up all my memory with them and others

Three years later or even before, i just can't stop thinking about what had happened in hk

I just wnated to appear in HK right now

finally, my dream has come true and it will disappear later

vacation is vacation

it will end one day

i miss the life in hk, i like the studying environment over there

i suffer in my mind so badly

every night before i sleep, i think about going back to america and leaving all of my friends behind

every time when i think about that, i couldn't sleep

i just can't image what will it be three years later when i come back

now, it's already three years after i left hk

everyone becomes very mature or just so differnet

i don't have a common topic to talk with them anymore

then, what will happen later, or three years after when i come to hk again??

will our friendship be the same??

or will it be ...................... weird

I wonder, but i don't want to know the answer

don't even want to think about it