Today is a pretty busy day, I should say

Well.. today is the first time ever i chatted with Cherry in America!!

WE didn't talk about anything special though

Just wasted an hour taling something nonsense

Just by one in the afternoon, my mum told me to get dressed and go to ACI (tutoring place) and get tested

I was shocked but then i wanted to finish it anywise

However, I really wanted to finish my english after-reading activity

I wrote 13 paragraphs already... I need 12 more

Just fifteen minutes after my mum told me, my dad is back

and then he told us to hurry up and go out

not to ACI, but to go to a house which we wanted to buy

the agent was there and we got to go in and see that house

The outlook of the house is pretty old and normal

however, the inside of the house is so pretty

there's three rooms and one bathroom.

there's another extra room for guest room or anything

well... that person living in that house put a snocker table in it

the garden of the house is neat and there's a small swimming pool!!

i love that house

but then there were too many people trying to buy it, i am not sure if we can actually get it

afterward, i went to ACI  and took the test (SAT)

OMG!!!! The whole test lasted 3 hours and a half

I was so frustrated adn angry when i took the english part of the test (verbal and writing)

it's so hard and the people over there said that it's normal for us to think that it's hard

however, the maths part is extremely easy for me

i am not sure on only one question and i think that i guess it right

i totally bombed the english part of the test, oh well... i don't care..... i should say i should not care

i went there at 3 and then went home at 7

omg.... i am starving right now

the gastric juice in my stomach is going to dissolve my stomach for sure!!!!

Guys, we should never complain on our life

Life is full of feelings.... good and bad

but life is also troublesome, as i have already experienced

However, how is our life if we compare it to those war-zone people, like in Afghanistan??

I just finished reading a thousand splendid suns

i am glad that i finishede this book and that the teacher made it as an assignment

if she didn't make it as an assignment, i will never touch this book

adn that i wil never learn anything that's so meaningful

The main character in the book, she used to be a very rich girl

rich as having a wonderful family

she used to have two successful brothers, a knowlegdable dad, a nice mum, and a good boyfriend

Because of the war, it took away her life... her real life

she became an orphan, without happiness, without warmth

the only thing she is left is to be forced to marry a sixty-year-old man

she was beaten everyday, suffered in curses, mistreatments, wars, strict laws only toward women

after all, the war was over and she found back her boyfriend..

then, she lived happily ever after

what a great story it is!!

but then i think i wasted too much time today

it's already 4:30pm and i have just finished this book adn nothing else

well.. i wasted a few hours today to organize my photo album today!!

what a great work i did today

i think i have to hurry up and do more things today in order not to waste the time

today is a happy day

haven't had happiness for 4 days already since i worked on my hw so crazily for 4 days

when i think back right now, i think that i am actually insane!!!

finally, happiness and relax have reached me after all the hard-work.

Today is nothing special

Just another ordinary day with the overload of HW and drama

Well... I think that i am going easy on myself for this two days

I am treating myself too nice

way too nice indeed

I didn't do much today...

Well... I allowed myself to do too much of my own stuff today

like reading magazine, reading Confession of a Shopaholic

haha.. that book is so fun

i think that Becky, the main character, is insane with shopping

she's already in debt and she is still buying a lot of name-brands and dreams that she will win the lottery

what an innocent and naive woman she is

there's nothing in the world like getting stuff without hard-work

everything is a give and a get-back

without suffering, u won't be successful

this is the principle i kept in my mind to keep me moving

I was going to concentrate and work hard this afternoon

however, when i was planning to start working on the computer

William in paris was on and I got all excited again

think that it's nice for him to join this trip

Going to travel alone can learn a lot of stuff

At least, u can be a lot more self-indepedence.....

After the trip, i am sure that he will learn a lot more about the life in other countries and also how to take care of himself

Looking forward to hear the interesting things he met on August 7th, the day he returns....

Today was a nice day before the second sms reached me

Why to ask me how i react to it??

Do i have a choice??

I was okay when the first sms requested me.

I read a lot of cheerful and positive books before and i knew that 

in order to let others to treat u well and care about u

u have to treat them nice and care them first

i did and i tried my best to do it .

however, nobody thought about me

i am not as strong as u guys all thought

i don't cry that easily because i don't want to show u guys that i am that weak

however, i can't take that much pressure all at once

I am already struggling so badly yesterday on my hw 

I worked on my hw and other stuff from 10:30am to 6pm

I read my stupid history book for almost 3 hours and worked on the assigned summer history hw for 1 hour

and then i read my summer reading book until i got so mad and impatient since i am not even half way done with the book

I practiced clarinet for another hour until I sweated so badly

by the way, yesterday was the hottest day in america for sure

I had to practice drawing too for one hour

just draw and draw and draw until i got so annoyed by it

yesterday, I was calm or blank-minded and just use that to force myself to work on hw

today, i am not calm

I really want to cry right now

I really feel extremely bad right now

I can't identify if it's the stress from all the work or that specific thing

History HW (about 60 pages to read and a lot of hw)... summer reading+additional hw

driving law (60 pages of new things to learn).... drawing class+practice everyday

practice clarinet 1 hour everyday..... housework...... start to learn music theory

new vocabs to memorize before taking the test in tutor....

Plz.... my life is desperate already.... no more sad things.... don't want to cry again

I don't really know what to say right  now

I just felt that my heart is blank right now and i really want to write it out to release my disappointment

Everyday, I wake up at 7 something in the morning not because of i couldn't sleep until that late

it's just that i am eager to talk to u guys

everytime when i wake up in the morning, i felt like it's an urge for me to not go back to sleep again

today is a good example

i didn't sleep that early yesterday

most of the days, i need at least 9 hours (even though 10 hours is better) to make myself to be awake for the whole day

however, i knew that u can't stay up until that late and talk to me everyday

therefore, i chose to sacrafice my time to sleep and let us have more time to talk

most important, to let u have more sleep and don't have to sleep that late

after i come back to america, i fought against the sleepinest everyday in the afternoon

it's because i want to wake up early in the mornign and talk to u

i have a habit of sleeping two hours everyday in the afternoon in holidays

however, i forced myself not to do so so that i can easily fall asleep by 9:30 and so that i can wake up that early in the mornig

it has become a habit to turn on the computer and msn everyday

i don't know if we can actually feel what each other is thinking

i had a dream in teh early morning today and saw the imagined window of msn in my dream

u told me in msn that u will not be on on tuesdays and u are not on today

before i got into msn, i really thought that it's just my imagination adn it's not true

however, fishball confirmed with me...

i was disappointed for sure

plz forgive me for my selfishness

without msn in the morning, i felt like today is not a day

well... maybe it's a day

but a sad day for sure