OMG!!! It's super super hot today....

When i woke up in the morning, i was already sweating and wearing tank-top didn't help much

the wind blowing toward me is warm and then it became hotter and hotter when approaching the afternoon

well... talking in msn makes me to be hotter and sweated too.... i don't like this hot weather

how unlucky we are, just 4 days before school starts, it becomes so hot.. i am going to get a lot darker this few months

omg!! i am already so jealous of those people who have pale skin

um.... going to the doctor at 4:50pm to ask him to fill in the athlete clearance form in order to start cross country training

didn't grow much taller... or that the nurse wasn't pro and she wasnt tall enough to see my height!!

she's as tall as me.... i think that she made a mistake

well... didn't gain weight at all.... that's good....!!!

met with the doctor and told him about my knee problem

he checked it and didn't find anything

he asked me if i want to get the x-ray and mum said yes

it's not a big problem.... is it neccessary???

today is pretty boring....... second to last day until school starts.... i have to treasure tomorrow... the last day

Today is an extremely exhausting day for me

i don't really want to type this out since my fingers are tired to move

In the morning, i don't feel right... something is missing

thoughts popped out in my mind early in the morning

i was planning to work on my history hw and then i failed to do so since i can't concentrate on this boring subject at all

thank god that i have drawing class today... helped me to calm down for 2 hours.... someone is not as lucky as i am

i am so so so so happy in drawing class today

my teacher praised me for drawing things that look so alike as they are in the the picture

i am so proud of myself when i compared the picture i drew and the sample one

i love my picture!!! omg!! i love drawing class and i don't want it to end

i am almost done with the picture when the class ends

i just need 15 min to finsih up the last part but then i have to go

then... my mind was messed up

i was thinking about the unfinished picture... thinking about something else.... thinking about school in 2 days... which the teacher reminded me

it's the worst afternoon ever

i was blank-minded for the rest of the day

i am still now

i had no feeling for the rest of the day... actually depressed.. but don't know for what reason

by 6pm, i finished an episode on a drama called purple rose and it was very touching

i then wiped at the end of the episode... then i couldnn't stop crying

don't know what i was crying for but it felt pretty good afterward

the pressure for the last two weeks was released after crying... nice

then.. the thoughts still bothered me a lot and i went running again even though my legs are hurting like hell (can't avoid this word to describe my feeling)

i can't even bend down right now... muscles are hurting crazily. shoulders too

i went more blank-minded while running... extremely tired and finally gave up on the fourth lap

i finished my history hw in this stauts... i am so happy right now... kind of... not really..... but then the only feeling i have is that i am extremely tired

only 2 days  left until school starts

i have to treasure the last two times to chat with u guys

Today is one of the nicest days after i come back from hk

i am an easily satisfied person

i can be very happy already with drama and msn

however, i have more today

i went to ACI today (tutoring place) and got my result back

i found out that there's still a huge distance from my dream

i have to work extremely hard for this year and the next summer in order to reach my dream college

omg.... that requires a lot of work... it's going to kill me for sure

will i have time to watch drama anymore?? i doubt it.... then my life will be desperate after all

this year has a lot of hard subjects but bad teachers.. which means that i have to learn and study most of the things by myself in order to get a good grade

then... i have cross country... three hours of practice every week day with some crazy competition every week... it's going to kill me under this hot weather and long run

more.... there's ACI on fri 3:30 right after school to 7pm

ACI on every Sat 8am to 2:30pm... the passing grade for all the hw and quizzes are 80%!!!! that's insane

more, driving test coming up.... drawing class every week plus hw.... music theory test

i am going to have an extremely hard year this year

how come i have all this ideas back again??

it's because i just had my happiest moment

i saw my friends on the webcam again

same as my prediction... i had a lot of fun with them.. chat a lot and talk about some nonsense

i think we can continue the talk for a long time... however, i had some other feelings when they were laughing

the gap between us is too big.... too big for me to join their group

even though i hear them and can see their faces, the feeling is different

i felt like i am not in their group and i am only an observer

how come life has to be full of separations and dissappointments??

why can't i enjoy that happiest moment without those thoughts popping in  my mind

i really want to be with u guys right now and chat in cherry's house and play together

i really want to but there's still 2 years and 10 months

i am looking forward for the time to come and we can play crazily for a whole month

i hope that everyone is still the same after all

plz!! give me a chance to play with u guys crazily

give me this happiest happiness after 3 years of hard work

guess what?? the hard days will begin tomorrow

no more wasting time on anything..... work hard on hw and then get everything done for school

that's my plan and i have to do it

LIFE?? What does it mean to me?? hard work... that's the only answer i can think of

OMG!~~ The electricity in my house is back to normal finally!!!!

i am so relieved this morning since i don't have to worry when will my brother wake up so that i can't use teh computer anymore

i can have my own computer back

however, to get back teh computer, i did a lot of hard work yesterday

i spent almost an hour to pull the interent core from the dining room back to the cable

omg!!!! i completely lost my patience and had an attempt to break it

haha... i was turning crazy at that time

i thought that this morning will be lovely since i can finally watch those drama i put down for 3 days

however, another news came to me and turned me insane

u guys are going to  ice skating next monday

do  u know what i felt when i knew it??

it's like  telling a prisoner that all the other prisoners are free to go but not u

that was a big thing for me

i turned crazy for 15 min and then i began to calm down

oh well... it's life

life is full of DISAPPOINTMENTS and DEPRESSIONS

and i am facing the reality right now

i haven't gone out for two days already

i have to persuade my dad to bring me to the big park and run today

um.... i want to test if my knee actually has some problems or not

i will know it tonight after i run

how many laps should i run??/

maybe 10 laps

that's a minimum....

good luck to me after not running for a month

Modern people can't live without electronic devices

same here!!!!

i can barely live through this two days.... it's hell without computer or any other electric devices

i am so unlucky this two days because of the power outage.....

there's no electricity in my house except for lights and stove nad one more plug

therefore.... all the four people in my house are going to share that SINGLE plug

omg..... i will never get a chance to use it because i am the youngest

my brother is using the computer all the time... i get no chance to use it except now....

i would have to wake up before him to get to use the computer.....

hhow sad is that???

no  computer means reading book for the whole day

reading books is fine since i love reading

however, i have to follow the worker who comes up to my house nad helps us to fix the electricity

if he's in the room.... i have to be in the room too since my brother didn't bother to care him

therefore, there's no way for me to do my hw.... i am just reading twilight for the whole day

when can teh electricity come back??

the worker is going to come today and break the wall!!!!

he's going to check which wire is burned so that he can change it

however, he has no idea which one is burned

is he going to break all the walls in my house and find that out??/

my house will be a mess afterall

thank god school didn't start yet

if not, we will all be a great trouble