Very nice weather today, i was plan to take them out for walk, but finally i didn't and i cutted grass instead. I just suddenly found out the grass in the grander was so high, maybe the weather just too bad to let me look out side, to notice. If he was here, i can bring them out and he cut the grass for me, and that is what he used to do. It reminds me the life we use to have. 

I was angry with him this morning, because he online later than before. I have been worried he might got sick just like last time, I have been guessed where he might gone........ but when he online at 4am (uk time) , i know he just woke up late. Then I don't care the reason why he was late, i just know he promissed me that he will onlie around 2am like usual. I am not a mean person, maybe he think i am. or maybe i am only mean for him, but why? I guess he never understand what i am thinking, or maybe what girls thinking. I just too miss him, too worry about him. I hope he can understand, but i knew he never will. However,   i know  at least he will pretend he understood.

It tells me again that  i can't live without him, because when i woke up this morning until he phone me, i was feel so heavy in my mind and my heart. As soon as i heard his voice and talking with him, i felt light and happy............. am i too soft? i don't know!!!! But never mind, it was just a very small event between us.