The final exams are coming very very very soon. However, the time is really not enough for me, especially for auditing. I am getting very tense now, I  am not sure whether i can finish all the revision. I can't even sleep longer, because i am keep thinking and reminding myself that exam are coming.................. Help!!!!! 

Very nice weather today, i was plan to take them out for walk, but finally i didn't and i cutted grass instead. I just suddenly found out the grass in the grander was so high, maybe the weather just too bad to let me look out side, to notice. If he was here, i can bring them out and he cut the grass for me, and that is what he used to do. It reminds me the life we use to have. 

I was angry with him this morning, because he online later than before. I have been worried he might got sick just like last time, I have been guessed where he might gone........ but when he online at 4am (uk time) , i know he just woke up late. Then I don't care the reason why he was late, i just know he promissed me that he will onlie around 2am like usual. I am not a mean person, maybe he think i am. or maybe i am only mean for him, but why? I guess he never understand what i am thinking, or maybe what girls thinking. I just too miss him, too worry about him. I hope he can understand, but i knew he never will. However,   i know  at least he will pretend he understood.

It tells me again that  i can't live without him, because when i woke up this morning until he phone me, i was feel so heavy in my mind and my heart. As soon as i heard his voice and talking with him, i felt light and happy............. am i too soft? i don't know!!!! But never mind, it was just a very small event between us.

Very tried, just came back from Jam's brithday dinner. Woke up at 7.30am and back home at 5.30pm, went out again at 6.30pm back at 9.30pm............... I have been drving for at least 8hrs, never did it before, I through I will die on the way I go to pick up 'Dolu' or on the way back. Hehehe................ guess what, I felt the time was very shrot, it was ok to drive that long way. I want to tell him what I have achieved today

'Dolu' seem loss some weight, and she was sick in the car. I guess she miss me and her play mate, she getting much better now.  more to come.....................

The weather is so strange, sunny for a while then raining, keep changing....... but still very cold . Going to pick up  'Dolu'  torrowm,  we planned to go at 6 in the morning, but the breeder said she going to shopping and we have to arrive after 1pm. So, we changed our plane and leaving at 8am.  It is a very long journy, I have been drving for a year, but never drive such long way. I am so worry, can I do it or not? I don't know, However, i have no choice, am I? I have to do all the things myself when he is not here, Can i say this is a good thing? Because i have no one to reply on, and i can grow up, become more strong? I hope he will worry about me, as much as  i always worry about him. 

One last thing, torrowm is Jam's brithday. We have to come back at 7pm and going out again for dinner with her. Oh, God. Why all the things come together this year always? I miss him very very very much

Have done lots of things today but only not study,............... I miss my 'Dolu' so much. I just called the breeder, she has not been mated yet, still need to wait for a while, and stay few more days in the breeder's home. I hope can pick her up as soon as possible. The house seems empty, no, quite ,no,....... anyway, everything just not right without 'Dolu' . Other dogs seems behave strange as well............. 

 'Dolu' mum just want to tell u that 'i miss u so much and can't loss u.'