til 25 dayz.. i together with bb f0r one year

but n0w.. i can't say that i l0ve him

y.. tell me y><

i don't kn wt happen..

bb seemz can't make me happy anym0re

i hate this feel and i l0ved him s0 much><><

finally at this day.. i just feel this i am telling lie if i say i l0ve bb

who can tell me wt's going on?

read a p0st that in 3b0yz2 girlz..

a couple togethered one year and one day.. finally they break up

no matter they back together again 0r wt

they really did break up at that day..

i don't want to be like them.. i kn is really hurt

truely.. i never think 0f i can together with bb f0r such a long time

i though we will break up so fast

anywayz we walk together f0r 11 monthz and 6 dayz

wt to prove? we really l0ve each other s0 much 0r we just wasting 0ur time?

i don't kn.. really><

dating should be happy right?

and couple should n0t hv any secret right?

i don't think we can do it...>< i suck

i just l0st n0w.. don't kn wt to do;

bb if u listen me and understand me..

can u tell me wt should i do?

all this blog is talking about u>< every happiness and sadness with u bb

i should l0ve u so much` but y?

y everything seemz n0t going to a right way?

if i say i don't l0ve u anym0re.. plz don't cry

i am n0t ur girl maybe..  although i l0ved u s0 much

is time to end up everything right?

plz.. tell me one m0re time that u l0ve me

then everything will go to a right position again.. plz

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h0ld.

i hv a long long time didn't type this blog lu..

now is the time to type it again.. haha`

bb came back in 14/12/2008 afternoon..

s0 excited.. and that time i was in joanna's home study with her..

but i received his sms.. i laugh

omg! i miss him s0 much><

bb back to logos at the next day..

he did touch my face.. but i didn't talk to him..

he said he was sad-____________- anywayz i was too

he didn't tell me he will come back.. actually that was a suprise..

i knew it in the morning.. but i pretent i don't kn-0-

h0h0h0 i love bb>3<

he sent a sms to me at 16/12/2008.. the first day 0f exam

is great*v*.

then bb back to logos again at 19/12/2008

we were so close after he came back..

discovered that i am n0t ready to leave him.. he is s0 cool

although he just stay a whlie with me then he went to play football-_-

bb back to logos AGAIN.. the third time

he came f0r play football.. and i just seen him f0r a few minz.

and at that day.. s4w had a christmas party s0 that we stay at school and can see him

the christmas party were n0t very nice.. but n0t bad!!

i love my class too.. all the classmatez was so sweet [BESIDE THOSE HORIBLE PEOPLE]

then hang out with my lovely fdz- crystal jessie kennis

and i started my cool holiday with my fdz and bb

22/12/2008

lots of thing to do..

went to watch twilight with bb..

then went to cwb with comm class ppl f0r doing the hw-_-

after that we walk around cwb then i met wain ellie hei chu to ride minibus to steny

f0r bbq and karaoke..

lots of ppl go with us.. included many f3 and bb

didn't talk that much to bb.. anyways thz f0r bb and juicy's christmas gift

23/12/2008

ten monthz with bb...  he seemz don't want to go out 

although he dated me b4.v.

anywayz,, i kn he was sick at that day><

s0 happy to be with bb.. and i finally do that

i can wait bbuntil 23/12/2008

that was wt i want to do when he leave hk at the first time><

then went out with ophe at lam tin

she seemz kn a lot 0f bb.. hate that!!!!!.V.

slient night,,

went out with bb to watch movie.. after that we took mtr together to cwb

i hea f0r a long time and he found his fdz.. f0r plya football again-________-

i wondered that he love football more than me-_-

wtever.. then i went to find kennis and shopping f0r a whlie..

after that we went to red box and seen crystal jennifer jessie bon hei mandy

so long time didn't seen jennifer>< miss her

christmas day- nth to do at the morning

i want to watch bb play basketball.. but i didn't go

then i went out with crystal- SHOPPING

just enjoy the time.. but n0t really want to buy anything

boxing day went out with crystal too..

is cool@@

27/12/2008

watch movie with bb at the morning again..

then went to agnes's home together,, jeffrey wait us at the mtr station

the two men didn't talk to me l0r..

met agnes at a plzza then hv lunch together

finish lunch that we went to agnes's home.. he play with the dog always

but is good that he hold the dog..

and we always play together.. with agnes and jeffrey also

really happy on that day.. at night we hv dinner together

and bb push me.. i angry at him

then he finallly ask me wt's happen and didn't talk to jeffrey h0h0h0`

then bb hv to ride bus to home.. but me and jeffrey ride mtr.

bb phoned me and seemz don't allow me talk to jeffrey-_-

is fine.. sweet day*v*

29-31/12/2008- extra class

is n0t that funny.. reallly-_- i lost many time to be with bb

anywayz.. more time to be with my fdz<3

crystal went to my home f0r dinner at 29

went to crystal's home sleep overnight at 30

went to jennifer's home sleep overnight at 31 [[more information in xg]]

i just felt i am older than b4... seemz that i hv a home

but n0t with my family

i l0ve that feel.. s0 when can i hv my own home?

2/1/2008

the last day to see bb..

i don't want him to leave me.. is so hard to face it

and i can't relly do it.. i nd bb to help me to do many thing... he is mine

no one can replace him to me.. and no one can own him from me!!

when i saw he is leaving me.. i just fall some tearz in the mtr..

s0 ugly-_- and i was sick

bb.. say that u won't let me go..

i nd u so much.. can u plz keep all the thingz between us.. and never let them go?

and plz. take a gd care 0f urself..

if i can.. i will follow where ever u go,,0k?

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h0ld.

nine monthz with bb<3

love ya and n0t going to change.

finally i g0t the answer.

i suck` i said that f0r many timez

that's everyone kn right?

and everyting gonna hv an end.

i just wanna quit all these thing,, i sick 0f these

hate that to perend` i hv never be important to every single ppl

and i just walk along their life and that's it

that's my life

i kn,, even bb didn't put me on his first position

wt's the only thing i hv,, ha?

i am the one who live without any love.

really none.. who's the producer 0f L0VE?

i sure that won't be me.. i just live f0r let ppl hv fewz min 0f happiness

and that's over! I HATE IT!!!

i just like live in a cage that in a zoo.

just everyone come in front of me and hope that i can make some fun

i nd some freedom actually.

can't i take any photoz with my fdz? y bb always care about the little thingz in my eyez?

and going to angry with me,, scold me

then wt can i do when i seen him to take photoz with other girlz.

i just keep slient and perend i hv seen nth.

that's wt i suppose to do? y?

i just want to hv some L0VE. is it too diffcult to give me?

god i am coming to stay with u

who is gonna safe me? no one.. i kn

that's it.. everything is 0VER!

i hv a take a big rest,, without anybody care and worry

can i hv my own life plz?

n0t going to do that stupid thing like killiing myself

but to run away from all the thingz

i didn't mention about any sadness in front 0f  classmate and fd..

but it n0t mean i am happy always

enough! i never be the important one

just someone be my N0. 1 2 3..

and from n0w on,, all is gonna be fair..

no any position set anymore!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and til ever

i leave all these thing.. so no one leave me alone

c0z i am the one who leave all 0f u.

u guyz never kn h0w i feel when all 0f u leave me..

u guyz always perend didn't see me.. all 0f these i will never f0rget

c0z i don't want to f0rget anyone 0f u. and these are the main memory that u gave me

thz.. i QUIT

live by my own is better than depend every single one 0f u.

i am working on my own life.. by everything u done

i hv g0t a gd lesson f0r how meeting new fd..

i kn fd's funcion.. is to hit it when u feel bad

s0 i am leaving all these thing.. i just don't want to face it anym0re

i didn't brave enough,,

back to the begin,, i just want to hv a life that hv less hurt

at least i want to cry

maybe i should stay and be the one who keep on crying

that's all i want maybe

this is 23/11/2008

and today i was together with bb f0r nine monthz

love bb all the time.. and waiting f0r him to come back

and to see him play with his fd,, and waiting f0r him to date me

that;s all the thingz i will do after 14/12/2008

c0z i am nth

who the one he miss isn't be me,, and never be

end up.

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hold.

these dayz hv many ppl birthday..

haha` me and race are the first one*v*

6/11/2008.

race and me 15 yearz old hapy birthday.

thz f0r u guyz sding me those birthday msg on phone 0r msn

thz f0r bb call me at lesson time and in the toilet>3< but that was a early call><

thz f0r crystal,, jessie,, kennis stay with me and went to cwb f0r kara0ke!!!!!

thz f0r 0phe,, yvonne hving dinner with me!

u guyz are the best!<3 l0ve ya and never change!!!!

7/11/2008.

ronald happy birthday.

ST0RTZ DAY!

going to hv 800m race..

i wanted to take the n0.3 as my birthay present

but finally../3\ only n0.4 and just hv around 3m i can be the n0.3

help.. u kn wt? i listen up many one call my name but i can't even move my feet

suck!!!! i hate that*

i just wanna cry out.. if everyone face aren't looking at me

after that.. went to play basketball and ate sth with yu,, chu and mrblue

8/11/2008.

thalia,, daddy happy birthday.

went to watch high school musical 3 with yinjai at 2130.

w0w` that's really cool man!

9/11/2008.

duncan happy birthday.

12/11/2008.

went to sam home after school.

f0r h0t p0t and also c0z sam is going to hv his bithday!

w0w` with many one..

me,, crystal,, mandy,, 0phe,, yvonne,, b0n,, hei,, ivy,, wain,, ivan,, mrblue,, chu,, markus,, sim0n,, sam

cool` haha.. non-stop to take photozzzz

leave at 2135 at last

13/11/2008.

sam hapy birthday.

i said appy birthday to him when i see him EVERYTIME!!!!

just feel that very cool

15/11/2008.

went out with crystal in cwb

f0r buying her shoes.. and my birthday gift>3<

h0h0h0` thz babe

and i finally make 123 angry with me

i suck! i just always break the relationship

i sick 0f all these thingz..

missing bb s0 muchhhhhhh<3.. as usual

i really want bb come back.

still hv one month left.. can't beieve that i can pass these 3 month

i though we will break up.

everytime when we hv arguement.. i just feel that is time to seprate with bb

but everytime we won't.. really l0ve bb so much

and h0pe that will never change.

c0z bb treated me really gd sometimez,, hehe`

bb is the only man that i nd right n0w.

and i kn that no one can go into his pose..

bb always be the only one.. <3

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擔當自私角色從來是我  天生大方只會是別個-

8 monthz and 2 dayz.

23/10/2008

bb and me together for 8 monthz lu*v*

didn't chat that much as usual.

and i didn't feel that happy as b4,,

just feel that we pass one month already

bb didn;t find me and i didn't find him.. but i hv abit hyper on lesson

maybe bec0z 0f 8 monthz..><

wtever.. sometimez i think bb hv sth with another girl..

don't kn y i will think 0f that stupid thing

just.. feel sad of that

n0t a woderful 8 monthz

24/10/2008

go to disney with crystal at around 1230

play many gamez

and watch many show...><

almost 1800 jessie and kennis join in"

four of us go to play space mountain.. haha so cool

we love the photozzz<3

and go into the ghost house with wain and his two cousin

i didn't see many thing.. but just scream

haha` i seemz like crazy

after that.. playplayplay and take photo

leave disney at 1130.. back home at around 1000

cool day.. love it

in love with all of it<3

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hold.